Guess who worked 15 hours yesterday?

Yep that's me. I did. I forgot to eat becuase I was so busy and just about passed out. My body started shaking and I got really light headed and the world started spinning. NOT GOOD. Yea I worked that long with out a break too. Luckely one of the "supervisors" here ordered a bunch of chinese food and I had some of that. Then I went home and worked somemore..(encluded in the 15 hours) probably more then that but that's what I'm rounding it off as. Then went to bed at about 2:00 am then got back up at about 6:30 am becuase I have so much to do today.

I went this morning and dropped off my check at the bank then went to the court house and paid my fine and got my lisence back. (that's nice...I missed it) Then went back home and switched cars with Kristin, cause David is moving today. Then came to work.

Yea that's were I am now. I want you to remember that I was here by 9:00 am. So everything I just said I did before 9:00 am. Now I am at work it is about 11:15 and when I got here I started working right away. I have about as much as I can do done for now. That is why I am taking this precious time to post. I have to drive downtown soon (for work) and pick up some things. Then come back to work and ship them to LA. Then I am getting the FUNK up outa here. I am going to go buy a new phone then go pick up my bridesmaid dress then go to Target and pick up some things I haven't had time to go get. I have to go to MAC and pick up some make-up. Go to Ulta and pick some stuff up. Then hopefully rest before I have to get ready for B's party.

Tonight I am going to go to B's party then after awhile I am going to the Church thing. (i think) then I don't know what I'm doing. I haven't yet desided if I'm going to the Rauchs house or if I'm going home and to bed. It will really depend on my mood at that point of time. I think Anna is sopposed to be staying at my house tonight. If not I am sopposed to at least drop her off at home. I don't know something like that.

Since I won't see most of you HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR.....

Remember DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE!!!!!!!!!! Have a DD :)

Later All,
See you in the New Year,
Erin Sue

You know what sucks?

A cell phone that doesn't work correctly. Yep that's right. My cell phone is offically dead. I mean I can call out and recieve calls it's just that I can't tell who is calling or who I am calling. I don't have the time (cause of course my cell was my watch) I don't have an alarm, I don't have anyone's phone number. Yea it feels like I have been in a coma and just woke up after like 5 or 6 months.....or maybe like I have amnisa (i know i didn't spell that right). It just plain sucks to have your life in a phone that just won't work.

Enough about that. I wish certian people would call me. If you think you are one of these people you should call me anyway. I'm sure I would like to talk to you too. Everyone who reads this should call me after the 1st of the year because I will have to resave your number into my new phone. (im getting it wednesday)

I am sitting in my house.....freezzzinnnngggg.... I mean seriously...who turns down the heat to..65? NOT ME>>>>>>>>>>>>

yea still cold.


when I am in a bad mood I complain about everything and piss other people off.

opps.

LATER<
RED

Well Christmas came and went and it still didn't feel like it was here or it is gone. I don't know what it was maybe becuase of no snow. I think I shall blame it on that. (works for me)

For the first time since I was little we had a family gathering and there were no fights. NONE..... now that is a record for us. Im not exagerating eather...litteraly ever time we have a family get together someone ends up getting in a fight with someone else. I don't know what it is. I actually had a good time with my brothers and sisters after wards too. We played Battle of the Sexs...which was a ball..... then we played Gesters..(don't think i spelled that right) which was freaking hilarous.... Watching everyone act out words is a great time... I am not being sarcastic eather.

Tonight is Danielles sisters wedding. Good luck.. hope everything goes well. I am going to Sarahs with Kristin we are exchanging gifts and staying there tonight. Good times. I am very excited about this because I was thinking and the last time just the Three of us did something to gether was........... it's sad but I don't even remember when....maybe when I still lived back here so maybe 1.5 yrs ago..if not longer. Wow it makes me realize how much I miss them.

I was such a bum today. I didn't wake up until somewhere between 10:30-12:00 I dont remember exactaly. Then I layed on the couch and watched tv all day I didn't even take a shower until like 5:00 pm... how grose is that? Yea but it felt really good. I haven't been able to relax like that in forever. Have nothing to do all day and just relax o yea..... heaven.

Well I think I am done posting for now I'll write more later,
Later all,
Erin Sue

"I want a man to stand beside me, not in front of or behind me, I want two arms to hold me not own me, I want a man that stands beside me"

I am at my parents house. It's funny. I haven't really been here in a while yet sometimes it feels like I still live here. Also it doesn't really feel like Christmas.
I mean I know it is but it just doesn't feel like Christmas time.
I think that might have something to do with the fact that we don't have any snow..(at my rents house) so to me it doesn't feel like it's Christmas time yet. Im just not in the mood I guess.

side note: I am thinking about not coming home for Christmas next year and just skipping it. I don't know. Maybe if I skip it one year then I'll really want it the next year. I'll have to wait until next year to deside though.

I have talked to Jon 2 times since he has been in Flordia...he said its 75 and nice out there. Yea you suck Jon. I mean if it isn't snowing then I want it really warm not just sort of cold and nothing.

I miss some of my friends. I'm not talking about my friend at my parents house cause I miss all of them. I'm talking about the people that I started hanging out with in VP to begin with. Oh well guess I should just get used to that....seeing as how I'm going to be out of the area for very long periods of time soon.

With Christmas almost over Kristins wedding seems so much more real to me and so much sooner then I thought. It exciting in a way.

I think I'm done for now. however I may post again tomorrow,
Merry Christmas all,
Love
Red

I was on TV this morning. Interesting huh? I was a model on TV this morning for the winter fashions. I was excited the only bad thing is that I was up at 4 am. yup that is an actual time in the morning. I don't know what I was thinking. But I did have fun.

So I guess everyone is out of school as of this Friday. I hope everyone has a good vacation.

I am listening to my coworker talk about guys. Its funny and distracting so I'll write more later.

ES

I need sleep!!!!!

My sisters wedding went well. I had a good time back home. I spent alot of time with my sister which was good for both of us. I saw my sister more on Friday and Saturday then I have in the past 17 years... and the best part is we didn't even fight about anything. Which is what usually happens...we get in an argument.....but this time we were laughing and having a really good time. It made me realize how much I miss her. Anyway it was good.

The only bad thing is that I didn't get any sleep. That kinda sucked. I still am trying to make it up. I over slept my alarm today and thank goodness Izik called me to find his phone or I would have been really late for work. Thanks Izik.

I'll post more later but I think I should get back to work now.... Oh by the way I might be on Fox News 2marow Morning. Cool huh? I thought so. I'll post more about that later.

Luv yall
Erin

Hey what's going on everyone?? I have a little bit of time at work so I thought I'd post.

I gave my speech. Thanks to everyone that prayed for me. It really helped. I was so agravated the night before becuase I kept changing it. Finally I got it worked out and everything went smooth. I had to go between 6 and 8 mins....I went 7 min 35sec..... I think.... Anyway I got an A.....YEA. It's about time I got a good grade.

We had a girls night this past Friday. It was alot of fun. It was Kristin, Natalie, Laura, Lacey and Myself. We were sopposed to do alot of things but we ended up just talking. Which is cool becuase all of us normaly only hang out guys. Seeing as they are usually only with their boyfriend/fiance'/husband....and I don't hang out with girls. It all worked out.

My sisters Wedding is this weekend so I'll be gone Friday and Saturday then back to work on Sunday. Sucks I know. But I got to do what I got to do. Whatever it's fine. I still haven't found a dress and I'm in the wedding. Iteresting huh? I thought so.

I can't wait to see everyone this weekend. I have a great Idea by the way if any of you "guys" from back home read this we have to get together on FRIDAY NIGHT..... It is a MUST!!!!!!!!

I got alot of stuff talked out with people that I have had problems with the past month or so. That is a good thing. I mean it really takes alot off of your shoulders and your heart to get that out of the way.

I didn't even realize it but I have been single for 1 year and 6 days.... Time flys. I know it sounds wierd but I knew that the 3rd was something I should remember I just thought it was Olivia's birthday...which it is....but it was that Joe and I broke up that day. Just an interesting thought......How would my life be different if we hadn't broken up? .......................

College group was good Sunday. We did skits.... they were very interesting... I mean ...DUMB>>> however they made us laugh and that was the point I guess....

Ok I think thats enough for now.
Later All,

Red

Hey everyone I am still alive!!! Hehe. I got through thanksgiving day fine but the day after I got into an fight with my brother and nefew. I'll keep the reasons why to my self let's just say that I was right they were wrong and I was the bigger person about it and left the house they were at becuase if I didn't my brother and I really would have gotten into it. It was crazy.

I have a huge speech coming up in my class. It counts for 1/4 of my grade throughout the whole quarter. Crazy huh? Yea well I decided to get it over with and go Friday then my teacher decided to put me going first. So I have added responsability going first. My speech has to be great. I am going to write my speech tonight and then practice it all night and wake up early tomorrow morning then go practice in the speech lab then practice again tomorrow night then again Friday before my speech.

Every one just pray for me.

Erin

I hope everyone has a safe and happy holliday!!!! I know that I will enjoy my time off from school and being home with my family and friends. Also remember not to eat too much cause it will make you sick....along with fat...but mostly sick....hehehehe

SO YEA HAPPY TURKEY DAY>>>>>

luv
ReD

So I brought Clair to the airport this past Saturday. I got up at 6:30ish to be at the hotel by 7:30 to bring her to the airport. Seriously I thought I got to sleep in on Saturday. Boy was I wrong. However I did get to go home and it took me a while but I forced myself to go back to sleep. That felt nice. I don't think I will ever catch up on my sleep. I mean seriously I think I have a form of Insomnia. It sucks but I found out how to help myself to de-stress so I can sleep. I think I'll try it tonight. I am so excited about only having a three day week this week.

I gave my speech at school today. I was so nervous, I thought I was going to puke or something. I went into school early so that I could go to the speech lab and practice. It's a good thing I did to becuase it really helped me to be able to know the exact length of my speech. I did perfect with time. I am so happy that is over with. Isaac says I care to much but I disagree. I care just enough. I mean it's not like I spent days on the speech or anything. I just did it the other day in my free time. Then last night then this morning, but whatever.

I hope everything is going well with everyone and everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving. If you want a Christmas card from me you need to give me your address. I'll be sending them out soon.

Anna:
Thanks sweety. I know you know about being stressed out. I hope everything is going well for you. I'll talk to you later!

Luv 2 All
eRiN

So I brought Clair to the air port this past Saturday. I got up at 6:30ish to be at the hotel by 7:30 to bring her to the airport. Seriously I thought I got to sleep in on Saturday. Boy was I wrong. However I did get to go home and it took me a while but I forced myself to go back to sleep. That felt nice. I don't think I will ever catch up on my sleep. I mean seriously I think I have a form of Insomnia. It sucks but I found out how to help myself to de-stress so I can sleep. I think I'll try it tonight. I am so excited about only having a three day week this week.

I gave my speech at school today. I was so nervous, I thought I was going to puke or something. I went into school early so that I could go to the speech lab and practice. It's a good thing I did to becuase it really helped me to be able to know the exact length of my speech. I did perfect with time. I am so happy that is over with. Isaac says I care to much but I disagree. I care just enough. I mean it's not like I spent days on the speech or anything. I just did it the other day in my free time. Then last night then this morning, but whatever.

I hope everything is going well with everyone and everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving. If you want a Christmas card from me you need to give me your address. I'll be sending them out soon.

Anna:
Thanks sweety. I know you know about being stressed out. I hope everything is going well for you. I'll talk to you later!

Luv 2 All
eRiN

Clair is back in town. She actually has been here since last Friday and I have been entertaining her ever since. This means long and tiring days. However I really like hanging out with Clair she is such a sweet person and cares about me so. My Mom is coming up tomorrow to have lunch with Clair and I. That should be a good time. I will get to go shopping with my mom and probably go show her the wedding dresses. I can't wait.

Alot has upset me lately and I don't know how to go about dealing with it. I have had everything thrown at me at once and I don't think I CAN deal with it. I believe the best way for me to handle everything is by taking everything in stride and just dealing with them as they get tossed my way. I have had everything from School stuff to work stuff to friends stuff to family stuff to personal stuff.... It just keeps piling on top of each other until I feel like I am being barried under everything. I finally get a sense of peace about me and more stuff comes hurling at me. It makes me wonder...didn't God promise not to give me too much that I can't handle it? Obviously I am still ok but if he doesn't stop I am not going to be able to get out of the way anymore.

Thanksgiving is coming up I can't wait for that. A little time off work. I will be so happy to get to relax alittle bit.

I have to get back to work now.
Luv 2 all,
Erin

Well I took my mid-term. I got a B. Not exactly happy with it but hey I could have done worse I guess...I could have studied more and gotten an A I know it. Oh well. I have 2 speeches coming up in the next month N a half. They are both on the same subject just one is informative and one is persuasion. I of course picked the subject I know best...... MODELING>.. How easy is this going to be? I mean all I have to do is talk about modeling and the business for 5-6 mins.... I could go on and on all day long. This is sweet.

Work is good. I have been of course super busy. Like always. It funny how many people don't know enough about the computer so I get called all the freaking time. You know I was thinking about it the other day. I am really lucky I like my job. I am actually very blessed to like what I do. I know alot of people who don't like what they do and who actually hate their jobs.

In wedding news. I my Sister is getting married December 13th as in this next month. Awsome huh? I think so. Kristin and I ordered our bridesmaid dresses. They are Red. They are so pretty.

Thats it.

Later all,
Red

I have been so freaking busy these past few days it is re-dick-u-lous..... (like my sp? hehe) I actually got to see Jason and spend time with him and sit down and talk to him. Something that hasn't happened in over a month. I had fun. Thanks Jason.

Work has been crazy.

I have to back to work now.

WOW did I have an eventful weekend.

It all started with a party on Friday. I actually showed up early to help the host and hostess get everything ready. It's a good thing I did too becuase if I wouldn't have it never would have gotten done. Well the party started off kinda slow. A guy from the past showed up. I wasn't sure if he realized who I was until later when I went and talked to him. He just couldn't be sure if it was me or not. It obviously was. Anywho.... Jello shots....good.... Yea and margaritas those are good too. All kinds of them. And blue hurricane bacardi is good also. I met this new guy Joe, sorry just couldn't get over the whole name thing. If he would have been named like Luke or something that would have worked of course his name was Joe. So I ignored him for the later half of the night. He eventually left me alone. (hey does this mean guys do eventually get the picture?)

Then a chick name Jenny who is awsome is hooking me up with her brother who's name is Jeremy. What a cute name. I talked to him on the phone and he seems pretty nice but we'll see in person.

Then I slept all most all day Saturday. I only left my house when I went to see Izik at work cuase he was bored and I had been sleeping all day long. Then he sent me home cause I was too tired to even be sitting there.

Sunday I woke up and went to work then Church then back to work. Me, being the dumbass that I am and pushing my luck the way I do, ran out of gas on 355. How stupid I know. So Izik came to my rescue. THANK YOU SO MUCH. I just sat and laughed at my self. Izik and I ended up going back to my house and chillin until Nate came into town then the three of us went over to PK's house and chilled there but that was kinda boring. Not the people just the whole thing. THe only good thing was Anna was in town so I got to talk to her. Not something that happens alot anymore. ........... Then we went back to my house, Izik Nate and I, and I made homemade manicotti. It was good. Then I made smoothies. GOOD STUFF...........

This morning I got up and went to school and then came to work. That is about what has been happening with my life lately.

I am proud of myself for not doing anything with anyone while I was inebrated either. Just a side note I guess.....

Ok that's it l8r yall

Red

Pat is a bamofo.....that is all I have to say about that.

I have been very off the last few days. I don't know what it is. I just don't feel right. Like something is so very wrong and I can't put my finger on it. I hope it blows over soon. I hate this feeling.

I had to give a speech in class Monday. I don't mind speaking in front of people I actually really like it. However I don't like having to watch my speech afterwards. NOT FUN!!!

I have a party to go to this Friday and I need a costume so anyone with any ideas please post them in my guest book! Things that are out: School Girl, Teacher, Hooker, Farmer, Cowgirl, Pippy Longstocking. ne thing else just drop it off. Thanks everyone.

Later all,
Red

Wow, I haven't been hanging around Jason lately but when did he start swearing like he does? I mean I know I swear alot, with out realizing it even, but I guess I didn't really expect Jason, the one that always yelled at me or hit me when I would swear, to starting shooting out the "F" bomb.....

I have run out of time so I'll talk to you yall later....

Red

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?

Alright, so I guess I don't write enough details. So Lets get some details on me.

I went home last weekend and got really drunk and ended up messing around with a close friend. (lots of fun)
Then I was to wasted to drive home so I stayed the night with friends.

The next day I went out to eat with my family and almost killed them. I really dislike family gatherings where most of the family attending dislikes eachother. So here is what I say to them. GET OVER YOUR SELFS. Seriously. One sister is mad at my Mom and Niece. DUMB.... My Uncle and Aunt don't talk to my Niece that is living with my Parents. Ok and how stupid can people be that they don't take otherpeoples feelings into consideration when they get angry.

Work yea ok so I had jury duty today. I called into work to tell them like 5 times. But my bosses weren't there so I talked to the girl at the front desk then I left a message on my bosses voice mail. Anyway that boss didn't come into work today so noone got that message. So they called me and started yelling at me. Fun stuff.

The only good thing about jury duty is I met a new guy. He is very nice. He owns his own house. He has a dog....and a blazer....he likes the outdoors. He gave me his number so I'm considering calling him.

Ok I think I've given you enough info now right Pat?

Later all
Red

Hey guys. I have been so busy lately. Let's see. I work then work somemore oh yea then some more work. Fun stuff.
I will admit though at the end of the night I can some times be bored. But hey that's what friends are for right? Yea that's what I thought to.

Work has been very interesting as of last week. Mr Latte got offered another posision in the company and he didn't except so he is no longer with us. Mr Nemes (the owner) took over as IMTA director and I am his assistant so now I do all the paper work and all the mailings and have to make sure everything is going well with IMTA.....which it pretty cool. I like doing it. So we'll see how that goes.

I started classes today. They are so much fun. My Teacher is AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!

That is all I am going to talk about any more I'm sure no one ever reads this anymore.

Later me

ok 4 down im doing good so far.

Lots of stuff happening with work...I'll tell you more when it is all official......which should be tomorrow maybe even friday.

I am in PAIN........my freaking back and neck are out of allignment...(sp?) and they hurt so bad.... mostly at this moment my left shoulder/neck area is killing me.

I don't have much else to say just thought I drop by and write a line or two. Later all,
Erin

You know I realized that I can't complain when everyone else doesn't blog when I don't blog myself. So here I am .....blogging... Not to much to say.

I made a bet with Nathan, if you want to know more ask me.
1 down 29 left......

I went rock wall climbing today. I acutally made it to the top too. I was shaking so bad, really it was my muscles spasming... They haven't worked in a long time.
I slept through church this morning. I felt really bad too. I was planning on getting up and everything, then I fell asleep on the couch last night then I remember waking up and going upstairs but then I fell right asleep. I forgot to set my alarm before I fell asleep so I didn't wake up this morning. I really wanted to go to. Dang it.

I have to jump in the shower now I'll try to write more often. Ok later all
ReD

Hey guys.
Not too much going on right now. I had my niece over the last couple of days. Man kids are expensive. That's all I can say. I took her school shopping. Wow. And I want four of them? What am I thinking. Maybe I should just wait until I have a husband and see how good of a job he has, then we'll see. Anyway.

Not too much to say.
Thank you to Nate and Jon for helping me while I was trying to deal with stuff.
Izik, thank you too sweety. You helped and you didn't even know it.
Kristin, thank you too hunny. I hope you are better soon.

Ok I'm done now.

Hey every1. Sorry it's been awhile since I posted last. Let me update you on what has been going on with me.

Sunday the 24th I was hanging out with Nathan and Isaac before I went swing dancing with Mike. I was at my house when my Mom called. She wanted to talk to Nate before she talked to me so I knew something was wrong. When I got back on the phone I asked what was wrong and who died. She simply said "Grandpa Petersen". I started crying so hard I hung up the phone and sort of tossed it on the floor. Thankfully Nate was there holding me telling me that I was going to be ok. I then left the living room and ran upstairs and cried until Nate came up after me. To see if I was going to be ok. I eventually called my Mom back to asked what happened and when and what time the Funeral was. She told me he had passed Saturday Night and the visitation was set for Tuesday Night and the Burial was set for Wednesday Morning. So I spent the next few hours crying. Then I picked up Mike becuase it is best for me not to sit at home alone so we went dancing which was fun, however I would have had so much more fun with different curcumstances. (sp?) Anyway I desided I wanted to leave so I brought him home then went and picked up Isaac then we went over to Jons. Jon was so sweet to me. He held me while I cried somemore then I feel asleep in the chair I was sitting in cuase I was so tried from crying so much. Then we ended up staying there that night. Then I got up the next moring and brought Isaac home. Then I went home to get ready for work. I went home and cried somemore while I was getting ready for work. Then I went to work and told my boss that I wasn't coming in to work for the next couple of days for obvious reasons. They let me leave early. Then I went home and told Kristin that I wouldn't be at the apartment for the next few days then I told her what happened. She was there for me too. Then I went to sleep and got up the next day and drove home to go to my Grandpa's visitation. Let me tell you, I really miss him, he didn't even look the same. My Grandma wouldn't let me go when I gave her a hug. She just started sobbing. It broke my heart. Then I went to eat with my Mom, Sister, Niece and Nefew that was fun. Then was the Burial that sucked even more. My face is still swollen from crying so much. I still sit and cry. Then I had to work today but I only went in for 1.5 hours. Tomorrow I am getting my little Niece and we are spending Aunt-Niece time together for the weekend.


I love you Grandpa, I'll see you when I get to heaven. I miss you.
Love always,
Erin------Red


PS grandpa died of lung cancer. maybe all of you should quit smoking before it catches up with you too. just a thought.

Hey everyone. How have you been? I don't think anyone actually still reads this blog but that's cool. I really don't care. I have been working alot and even on my days off I still haven't been able to get enough rest. What is up with that? I mean seriously. I have almost completely desided to move to LA at the end of Feb. beginning of Mar. After Kristin's wedding of course. But our lease will be up then and there is nothing keeping me here. I mean besides family which is 2-3 hours away. I am going to take a trip to LA before hand to see if I even like it there. I have a feeling I will. I have 2 job offers and a couple if Managers and Agents that I am talking to. I can't wait. It is coming fast too. Otherwise if I don't move there I will move to NYC to go to a School there. Eather way I am out of here. So much to do so little time. Ok I have to go now. Later babes.

I have had the longest weekend ever. I worked about 20 hours on Saturday, got 2 hours of sleep then went back to work and worked 13 hours then went to dinner with work then entertained abunch of agents for 3-4 hours then went to sleep for 4 hours (tops) and got back up and work some more. And guess where I am now.... WORK. Yep. And I have to work then next 3 days. Friday I am sleeping for so long. You won't even see me. I am taking the whole day to sleep.

However I made some really good contacts. I have so many agents and managers telling me that if I come to LA to call them. That part is awsome. I got cards from almost all of them and phone numbers and everything. Nice huh? Yea I thought so. (the best one was the hot one that gave me his number and was flirting with me the whole time. you know me i obviously had to flirt back.)

Kristin and David. YEAH! I am so happy. I am going to be in their wedding. Lots of planing to do in the coming months. Fun stuff.

Boys are so confusing. I realized this along time ago however I am reminded of that almost every day.

hey i went to 6 flags yesterday. It was so much fun.
lots of news however i can't tell you.

What have I done in the last few days.

Kristin gave me the present she got for me...with David. They said they both picked it out. Thats cool I guess I should just get used to receiving gifts signed as a couple. I actually kinda like it, but whatever. We had Pizza on my birthday. Anna came over and she ate with us then we watched a movie. Nurse Betty, enough said. Yesterday I went to work then went out with some new friends. They were so much fun. They had to get up for work this morning though so I left and went to Jon's house. Where I got a back rub from Newman. Oh yeah~ I really needed that. Jon cracked my back. I needed that too. Then I went home. I got up for work today, came into to work and that's about all that has been happening lately.

I am going to have Ice Cream and Cake for my birthday if anyone wants to come. Respond in my guest book or call me. It is going to be tomarrow, around 6-6:30ish....... Yeah we will probably eat around 7:00. Anyway yea this is just easier then calling everyone. If you don't want to come then just ignore this message.

Ok later,
Red

Ps. It isn't a name that I just gave myself. My Uncles and family members and old friends call me that. Thank you Jon and Newman.....jerks.

PPs. it's Tomarrow~ :P I like the way I spell it.

hey everyone. Today is a special day.
It's my Birthday.
Thank you to everyone that called me to wish me a happy birthday.

I went to MI. Friday thru Saturday. I went tubing. First time ever.. i am already a pro. I am also so burnt. I mean lobster red. It hurts so bad. My legs are burnt my arms my face just everything. OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know i know...your white what do you expect? Well not to turn into a lobster.
However I also must say... this is not as red as i have been in the past. I mean i have been worse but right now it still hurts.

I am at my parents house right now. I guess they are having a birthday party for me. They told me today. Ok then. So we'll see how this goes.
Later all

Red.................litteraly.

ps Hi Adam

Happy Birthday to Anna!

My day has been so stinking hectic. Crazy man. I mean really crazy. I can't wiat to leave tonight.!

Hey everyone. I'm BACK. not that many of you care, but I am. I hear that alot has happened since I've been gone. Interesting things too not just boring stuff. However heres the kicker.... I don't really care about most of it.. It's a feeling I have to get used to. Not caring. Oh well it kinda feels good.

So anyway I'm at work so I can't really talk much. My internet is out at my house though so I don't know when I'll be able to post. again... Maybe after I get off work I'll use the computer then.

However I'll post later,
Love you all, (well maybe only some of you)
Erin

hey everyone. Just thought I would stop in. I have been so busy hectic. I don't know when I'm coming or going anymore. I run around like a freaking chicken with my head cut off. Dang.

Ok so I leave in 2 days. TWO............So soon. so much to do. right now my resumes are printing. that takes forever. 80 stupid resumes. then i have to cut them and staple them to the back of my pictures.
one good thing. I did get my comp cards and my blowups yesterday. that was a good piece of mind.
ok i have to go now. lots of stuff to do.

PRAY FOR ME please!!!!!!!

Sad, hurt, crying, this is my emotions. No one knows the reasons. Even if you think you know the reasons you don't. You have no idea.

I can't explain the feelings inside. I have had so much stress in my life this past few weeks. I have stopped sleeping and when I do sleep I have horriable nightmares. I can't handle this. I can't really eat. I get sick to my stomach when I eat. All I want is this feeling to end. It won't though. I don't know how to make this stop. I can't make this stop. I can't make this go away. Please God make it go away. Please.

Hey everyone, I'm still here. I know it's been a while since I posted last. Ok let me think about what has happend since then.

On the 3rd I went downtown to see the fireworks. It was so cool. I love fire works. They were the best I have ever seen. However there were too many people.

On the 4th I worked. That sucked. The 5th I worked. Then we had a picture scavenger hunt. That was so much fun. My team (Brandon, Olivia, Danielle, Jenny and I) tied with Kristin's team (Kristin, Dave, sorry but i dont remember who else was on that team). It took place downtown Chicago. It was awsome. I found out some interesting facts too. Like the biggest Nemo stuffed toy in the Disney store costs $498.00. That is expensive!!!!

What else? Um this week was mostly spent with sleepless nights and if I did sleep I had horriable dreams. Like scary nightmare dreams. (no i am not going to tell you why. if you don't already know)

I got my headshots back from work. They are so cool. My other pictures should be done by the end of the week.

Thursday Anna and I got together and hung out all night. That was fun. We died her hair. Got alot of talking done in that amount of time. Fun times.

Friday Olivia and Brandon got married!!!!!!!!!! Yea for them. They both looked fabulous. All of the bridal party looked great too. I got to dance with Tony there too. That was fun. All together I had a good time at there wedding.

Saturday my Mom and Holly came into town and we went Downtown Shopping!!! To get ready for NY. I got lots of new stuff but not nearly enough. ( always not enough) Then yesterday (sunday) Holly and I had our mini IMTA (practice for ny). Nate and my Mom came to watch us. I had a blast. But it was super long. I was there from 9:20 am (we were late, sopposed to be there at 9:00am) till 10:00 pm. Nate video taped it for me. I still have to watch it to see how I did. I think I messed it up completely but no one else noticed.

I slept 11 hours last night. about. I needed that sleep so bad.
I leave in a week to go to NY. I am getting nervous. Please pray for me. Pray that I don't get sick and that I have a safe flight and I get enough rest.

Ok I think that is enough to read now. I will try to post again this week.
Later all, Red

Hey everyone. This is weird. I am in charge of the agency for the next few days. I have to book people for clients and set everything up. My Mom is in town. Or at least she was in town. She had to leave today. But she came and saw me before she left. It was different and made me feel like an actual adult when she came and I have my own office right now. And she sat down at my desk and we talked. I really like the feeling.

Ok enough of that. So I have to work on the 4th. How not fun is that? Well I'll be working down-town Chi town. So I guess it could be fun. Maybe. Ok I have to get back to work now. Later all

Red

Sorry for not posting for awhile. I have been super busy and haven't had a chance.

Ok so I guess I'll update you all with what's been going on with me.

I went to the Sox game. Everyone already knows but yeah the SOX WON!!!! OH yeah great times. Lot's of stuff upset me during this time. Mostly the Cubs fans. (people with poor taste) But I had a good time.

I went to the warped tour. That was fun. I got sunburnt. that sucked.

I have so much to do within the next few weeks. It's crazy. Stuff to memorized. Make and just plain get rid of before I go.

Nate moved out. I got my own room. Wow my house is clean right now. I mean really really clean. I didn't want to touch anything cause it was so clean earlier. My room rocks. I can't wait to get everything put up like I want it. Then it will kick butt!!!!!

Ok I am being a rude hostest. I'll talk to everyone later

Nite all,
Red

So yesterday was pretty interesting. For those of you who don't know, I have no voice and also a friend of mine is staying with me for a few days. Ok so yesterday. She (her name is Holly) , Holly and I went to work then by the time we left we were disgusting so we came home and took showers then we went to College Group at church. Then when we left Jon and Isaac came over then we chilled for a while. I talked to Jason but he said that he didn't feel like doing anything. No comment. Then we were bored so the four of us drove around looking for trouble..............................we found it! Yes. so then we caused trouble and video taped it. So we made this funny movie that could sort of remind you of Jackass if you watch it. Then my battery died on my video camera cause it didn't get charged from the last time it was used. We came home and watched it. I laughed so hard last night. It was great.

Ok so now I have the day to clean up my room. Actually I'm just going to straighten it up. Then I am going to call Isaac and we are going to do something.

I'll update again later,
See you l8r sk8rs
ReD

Yep you guessed it. Im back again cuase I'm bored. I'm not really working just sort of here. I am waiting for Claire to be done on the phone so we can leave. We could have been out of here about an hour ago but we waited cuase one someone else was sopposed to come and two cause she has been on the phone. I just want to leave so I can go home and go to sleep. Or maybe just relax or go buy a present for something special in the next few days. Yea probably that one. Ok i'm done now.

Later

ok so im at work and i feel like crap. my head hurts i have a fever and i can't breath. being sick sucks......

Hello. Ok so I think I shall update everyone with what's been going on with me. I know that most of you don't care but I am still going to tell you.

Ok so Sunday I picked Claire up for work and brought her in, then when she got out of the car she says to me; "I want you to go to your family thing and not come back to work, now I won't see you later so take care and drive safe." So I went to church then I stoped by home and grabbed some clothes and went home. I called work when I was at my parents and said; " Well I am not coming in" they called be a female dog then said ok.

I got home and was with my family. Had a great time, then everyone went home and I went over to my parents house. I check the answering Machine and there is a message on there from my Aunt Ellen. She sounded pretty bad so I called her back, she told me she was going into the Hospital the next morning for Heart surgery. Wonderful huh? I didn't even know she was sick. So ok I'm doing ok with that. Then later that night I had to go meet my dad at my brothers house to pick him up and bring him home. When I saw my dad I almost started crying. He is very sick. very very sick.

I haven't told most of you this but my dad has a form of Lung Cancer. He has had is for quite awhile. ok so knowing this his lung capacity isn't very muck anymore, I think it is between 40 and 50 percent. So it's not good. So when he gets sick it is worse on him. So I tell him that the next day he is going to the doctor. SO the next day comes around and my Mom brings him to the Morrison Hospital. (for those of you who don't know, it is like a clinic/emergency room) So they tell him that he has a virus that they can't cure. He just has to let it take it's toll on him. Now this is bad cuase he is coughing so bad that he can't catch his breath. He has no energy. I can't take this. I hate seeing him sick. So then it starts to make me think that this is going to lessen his lung capacity even more.

So I go home and then all this stuff happens. I have had a pretty hectic week. Then I come back here, I go watch Jon play ultimate frissbee. That was boring so I went to see Jason at work. J had school this morning so he went home and went to bed. I wish he could have stayed out I really could have used him last night. Oh well I guess I should get used to doing things and handling things by my self. It sucks but when I move I'm not going to have anyone that I can run to so I have to deal with things like that on my own. So I did last night. Not to much fun I must say but I'll get used to it.

Ok I think I have givin everyone enough to read. Later all,
Red

hey everyone. Long time no speak. I am listening to Pat and Jon fight it is really freaking funny.

Ok so Claire loves me, its official. We have gone out like every day so far.

I am mad at my bosses though cause she won't let me go home tomorrow for my family stuff.

ok I think I'm done now. Later all.

ok im at work. i think i did good on my first part of the final. let's just pray i do as well on the second.
lots of news can't tell it all now though. later

I am at work. Im bored. I'm done

My car sucks. I mean what is up with it just not starting. Nothing I can do fixes it. I hate this. I mean seriously. Why can't anything just go right? Why does everything have to be messing up for me and on me now? Come on will someone please tell me what I did? I just want this day to be done. I called Jon and talked / wined to him about everything. Thanks Jon for you help and listening.

I watched the MTV Movie awards tonight. Man those guys are so freaking HOT.
On another note. I went into work today for about an hour. Fun stuff. Then I got my pictures ordered. I got Head Shots, Comp Cards an 11 Blow ups to put in my portfolio. Sweetness. I actually got out my pictures and layed them out and then made them look at them so we could get them ordered. We shall see how they look when I get them back. I have a test in the morning for math. I hope that goes well. Then I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. So that means I have to go home tomorrow. I'll be back Saturday afternoon though.

Later all,
Erin

Hey everyone. Sorry about the last post when all I did was gripe and complain. I may get off work early tonight. I think I may have to go into work tomorrow and if that's the case I am going to request that I get off early tonight like around 5. We'll see about that. I hope it happens. I was at work last night until 10:30-11:00 ish.... Cleaning none the less. I actually liked it though. Everything is so much more orginized though.

Well I think that's about it for now. I am doing homework so it's done for tonight. Later all.
Erin

Saturday Night I got about we'll be generous and say 3 hours of sleep. The I got up at 5 am and got ready for work. Was at work by 6:30 and I didn't get home until 2am this morning. What kinda crap is that. Let's figure out how many hours that is.......17.5 hours. Way to long. I mean seriously. What is wrong with me. It's not like I could really help it because I was out of town but still. Plus I am getting sick. Not enough sleep I think. My throat I killing me. I can't really talk. I have a cough. My back hurts, my neck is sore. Dang it sounds like I got in a fight or something. I'll stop complaining now.

Happy birthday to Tony. I wish I could have been there.

Well I missed my quiz this morning. ( I over slept) So I think I am going to have to go talk to my teacher and see if she can help me with what I don't understand. I have to read a book by tomorrow, I have to write a paper by Thursday. And I have Math Test of Friday. I am so glad skool is almost out. One more week. That was I have to keep thinking.

I have to work today, but I get Thursday off. I wish I had today off.

Ok I might delete this later cause all it is is me complaining.

Later all,
Red

I have a confession and I guess it would be a best to just tell everyone at once then each one individully. (sp?)

I have been concidering moving to NY. I mean Soon. Like with in a few months. I have been thinking about it for a while now. But I have been really thinking of how and jobs and all that type of thing. I have a cousin that could get me a job there. I have someone that is thinking about moving there and she and I could get an apartment together. I would really apreciate if anyone reading this could pray for me. I need to make a desision soon so any prayer or insite could help. E-mail me or leave me a message in my guest book.

Jon, I think its funny that all of your posts lately could be meant to so many differnt people and I didn't know what you were talking about or who you were talking to I would be so freaking lost. I think everything will straighten out soon. We are going to have a ton of fun this weekend. I hope so anyway. I can't wait.

Ok I think I am done now.
Thanks everyone.
Love ya,
Erin

Last night I went to Kittle's for a bonfire. It was fun. I had a good time hanging out with everyone. I promised Newman something last night. I just have to keep reminding myself of that promise.

I don't really know what else to say. I have a bunch of homework todo today. I need to get it done cause its due tomorrow. I dont' want to do it but I will it shouldn't take me to long. I don't think anyway. I want to rent election. I haven't seen it and a show on TV was talking about it. I want to see it. Election with Reese Witherspoon. Ok later all
I am so freaking bord.

rEd

Ok so I did pretty much nothing today. I feel bad like I am worthless or something. Oh well. I got much needed sleep. I think I might be getting sick cuase I sleep more now then I used to.
I went to a movie by myself tonight. That was interesting. There were a bunch of kids that came in. They were loud and annoying. So I told them to be quiet. It was funny, I was kinda expecting them to talk back, but they didn't so that was cool. I finally saw all of X2. It was awsome however I'm not too thrilled about the end. But whatever, I trust them they know what they are doing with it.

I'm sorry you feel the way you do. I hope you find whatever it is your looking for.

Ok I'm tired later all,
Red

My boss loves me. Both of them. All of my bosses have been super nice to me lately. It sort of scares me but then again it is cool.
Jon and Newman came to my work today. They went and bought me a c.d. that I needed for work. Thank you guys. Your the best.
They saw a picture of Holly. Nate the think she's hot and they even saw a bad picture of her. Must be nice. Guys can look at your bad pictures and still think your so hot..... I wish. NE way.

I think I am, going to go do my school work now. Later

ReD

Hey everyone, what's new?
Just to let you know I'm not mad at any of you. At least no one that I am aware of.
My boss called me this morning and asked me to work today. I told her NO. I have stuff I have to do for school. Then she asked me to come in early tomorrow. I said I had school then too. Which by the way all of this stuff I told her is true. I'm glad cause I didn't want to go to work today.
I don't have anything else interesting to write about. Later all,
Erin

Danielle and I went shopping this morning. It was fun we had a good time together.
Then I came home and I did stuff in my room. Then alittle bit later Kristin came upstairs and sat on my bed watching me. (I was on the floor.)
I was like can I help you? She was like no. I said ok.
So we ended up going to Target. Then we desided to order pizza it was good. (we picked it up and came back to the house to eat it)
On our way to get the pizza we picked up Ice Cream.
We invited David and Isaac over to eat Ice Cream and Smoothies when they get off work. It will be tons of fun.
I have to be up in the morning to go to work. That sucks. I would rather go to church.
I miss going to church. I believe we have College group tomorrow night. If we do I am most definatly going. I hate working Sundays.

Ok I think I'll be done complaining for now.
Red

Also I must say congratulations to Esther. I heard from Danielle that you made it to state. Good luck.

i know that you may be asking yourself why I would blog something like my last post. Here is why;
This is how I see myself through other people's eyes. This is how I understand what other people see me as or how they see me.

alright. what I have learned about my self in the past 48 hours;
If I smile at a guy it means I want to have sex with him. Atleast this is they way somepeople think.
I eat too much.
I swear to much.
I fight to much.
I have a temper...................DUH>>>>> if you didn't already know this about me then you don't know me at all.
I am a tramp. at least some peole think so.
I am heavier then I think I am............
I am a very bad person.

if you have more to add...which i know you all do.... go ahead and tell me what you think of me in my guest book.
i have more but i don't want to post them. your turn to bash me ..........

erin

I was looking at some of my old post and I realized that I start alot of sentences with SO. I have tried to stay way from doing that in the last couple of post cause. We shall see how long that lastes. I don't have to work today I am so excited about that. I am going to call some people and see if they want to do something outside I think. Maybe play baseball. I really want to play. I think I am going to go take a shower and get ready for the day so that I can play ball.

More later promise.

Red

what up everyone? it is so freaking late. well not really that late but I just got done writing a paper. Those suck. I hate english. I am glad I only have to take one class... that is if i pass this class. I probably wont' I'll probably fail then I have to take it all over again.
I need to sign up for summer classes still. DUH what was I thinking. I have to do that right away
ok later skaters i am going to bed

ok i blogged are you happy?
why didn't you answer you phone? you told me to call you

hey you... if you even read this anymore check your e-mail

Red

This really sucks. Randy and Aaron came home with me, it was sopposed to be for a week but I guess now I may have to bring them back tomorrow. I wish that they didn't have to go home.

song lyrics: "Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face" ~~~~~Avril Lavigne

Hey all, I know. three blogs with in the last 48 hours amazing huh? Ok anyway, I went to a softball game tonight. I froze. Now I am hanging out at Jon's. I have to talk over something with my roommates before this weekend. Probablly won't happen. There really isn't a time that we are all together at the same time. It is simi important. Oh well I guess.

I have a feeling that I am a bad person. I don't know why I am feeling this way again. But I feel like a horrible person and I don't want to be around anymore. This sucks. I'm sure I'll get over it soon enough.

It's raining outside right now. I doubt that any of you will know what I mean by this statement. It's ok your not sopposed to. Even if you think you do your most likely wrong. Yep even you. You too.

Ok I think that is all I will write for now.
Later

~~RED~~

Brian, I'm sorry you feel left out. To be honest I didn't even think you read my blog. Actually I didn't think about you reading anyone's blog. Anyway HI. Hope everything is going good with you.

Alicia, I will tell slappy to check it. HI by the way. I haven't seen you in forever. Hope everything is good with you as well. I didn't know you read my blog or even knew about it. When do you graduate? I got your e-mail about your house. It is really pretty. Looks nice. Congrats.

OK that is all I am going to post for now. Later all.

~~Red~~

oh yea one more thing. it was wierd yesterday i went all day with out jon or danielle calling me. strange. jon did call me last night though. anyway i'm sure they will call me today.
ok bye now.

Ok Pat. You can be an ass but at least you don't sugar coat anything.
Danielle, How much more obvious does Jay have to be? Hello his blog was pretty self explainatory. (sp?)
Joe, Check your e-mail. Your Hotmail one.
Jessica, I'll talk to you this Friday.
Randy, I got your message and I will respond tonight.....

Ok now that that is out of the way.
I love my pictures. I got them back yesterday. They turned out good. They could be better as Jon pointed out in each one of them. Thanks by the way.
So I hope to use my parents computer and put some of them on this site this weekend. Ok that's about it for now.
Later all,

Red~

OK so my photoshoot was yesterday. It went well for anyone that is interested. Can I just say something... Things that don't mix; cold weather, blowing wind and swimming suites it just doesn't go together.
I think I have a cold now becuase of it. I can't wait to see those pictures. I have a really good feeling they are going to turn out awsome. at least awsome for me.

Also My photographer is so hot. Even though he is older... ok alot older he is still hot. I don't know what it was and or is about him he is just hot... ok I'll stop with that.

Has anything ever happened to a friend of yours and you wish you could help but you are just unable to. You were just to far away or they wouldn't let you help or you just to busy or something like that?
It really sucks just to let you know.
Also have you ever wanted to tell anyone something so bad that it hurts but you just couldn't? What if it wasn't a matter of trust or judgement. You just couldn't. Yea that sucks too.

Ok I think I am done now.
Danielle, blog something worth while. BLOG SOMETHING INTERESTING.!!!!

OK LOVE TO ALL
Red~

ok so those pics i told you i would post.... they suck so im not posting them..
My head still hurts. I am getting sick to my stomach with excitement/nervousness.
My photoshoot is in 10 hours. oh goodness. I don't think I am read my mom came in with my nefew to go with me to the shoot so they can help me with the photos.
Oh wow i am nervous. I didn't think I would be this bad. I have been through this before so it should be no big deal right? ok im done complaining now.
Later all.

what's up I needed to blog today. My head hurts so bad........I woke up with a huge headache. I haven't been able to get rid of it yet. Ok that's it for now. Later I wll post a pic,

I HATE LIARS. I can't stand it when someone that I am close to me lies to me. I don't want to talk to people that hurt me by lieing to me.

Hi. Joe, Check your guest book. Then write me an email and let me know when is a good time to get ahold of you and at what number?

Jessika, Hey you. I hope you aren't mad at me. I'm sorry I didn't call you. I have been busy the past few weeks. I only called and talked to Randy cuase he left me a message that I needed to talk to him. Granted it was about my problems but he still said that I needed to talk to him. I didn't like go hang out over in Clinton then NOT call you. I didn't really talk to anyone. I spent the time with my family becuase it was my grandma and dad's birthdays. Plus Easter. Plus I had a ton of homework to do. I will call you later tonight. When do you work?

Ok To everyone else. I hope you are all having good days. My Computer is finally working. I have Jon and Nate to thank for that....so THANK YOU BOYS... your the best. However it still isn't hooked up to the internet yet so that may take a bit more time.

Danielle. I hope you get moved soon. Let me know when you need more help I promise to help if I can.

Jon, You do spoil me... don't argue you know it's true. So does everyone else.

Ok that's enough now.
~~RED~~

Hi everyone. I'm sorry I have neglected you all for so long. Work is really making me upset. If you want to know what I am talking about then sign my guestbook and ask me. Then I will contact you and talk to you about it.

Pictures. Fat Fat Fat this is my problem. I really need to stop eating junk.

Ok that's enough for now.

You do spoil me.

While I was home I copied two cds. It is one artist just two cd set... Garth Brooks Live. I know that most of you don't care about this but then I also know that very few of you will actually aprove of these cds. Not that I actually care if you aprove or not. But hey I thought I would at least tell you. I have been listening to them alot the last couple of days. I really like Unanswered Prayers. That is a song I think that everyone can relate to. If you don't listen to country or you have never heard this song, there is one line like this: "Just remember when your talking to the Man upstairs, just becuase he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care, Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers". When I hear this line it really makes me think.

In other news, I actually got up and sang at Karaoke last night. I am glad that when I did there wasn't alot of people there. Mostly because I think I don't sing very well but whatever. It was fun.

I think That's all I'll say right now. I still have about 30 minutes before I have to leave for school.

To You,
Thank you for talking to me last night. I don't know why but I just needed to talk to you about grandma's party..... I'm sorry if I upset you at all. I didn't mean to. Also...you are getting better at being mean, don't underestamate yourself... (i don't think I spelled that right)
You know who you are. I'll talk to you later sometime.

Erin

You know I never relized how colorful everything is back home. I was looking out the window today when I was driving to church and I just started noticing how different everything looks. It's cleaner and brighter. I will admit I miss that. However I am happy with living where I live for the time being. I miss the people but not the place. I'm glad that I always have this place to call home. I have been thinking about building a house this summer on some land back home. I think I am going to build a little log cabin just so I have a place to go hide when I want to.

Ok I have said to much. Have a good Easter everyone.
All my love,
Erin

Have you ever been in a situation that no matter what you do you are going to hurt someone close to you. I really hate these types of situations. All it does is cause problems. It seems like everything I say and do lately ends up hurting someone I care about. If it doesn't hurt them it hurts me and then affects them buy me hurting myself. I have a very heavy heart right now.

It feels like I can't breath and I don't want to live. If I'm not here then most of the problems will just deslove. If I just leave then everyone will go back to there old more "normal" ways of life. Maybe it would be better that way. Maybe I should just take off. Or maybe I should just become a hermit. Stay in my house. Go out for School and Work that's it. Just disassoiciate myself from everyone else.

I think I am starting to become depressed and I really don't want to fall into that cycle of events. I think I could be a very distructive depressed person. I don't want to do that to myself or anyone else yet I feel it starting. I can't help myself, I want to hide and cry and just be alone but not because I hate people or anything. I just don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

I don't know how to make this more obvious to you. I don't want to lose you but I feel like I already have and if I haven't I will becuase I can't stop hurting you. I don't mean to hurt you it just happens. I'm sorry.

I have a feeling I have said to much tonight. I think I have depressed and or worried enough of you now. I am glad I am at my parents house and none of you can get ahold of me about this. I am going to go make it go away now. Good night.
Erin

I am drinking Jamba Juice! Yum Yum. Ok I have my photo shoot scheduled now. It is a few weeks away. Maybe I'll put a pic of myself on here when they are developed. Probably not but maybe. I have to be at the place where I am getting them taken at 8:30 in the morning. I hope I'm not sleepy. I am going to have to sleep alot the night before. I have so much to do before the date gets here and it seems like it is flying buy. Crazy. I know that some of you are going to read this and not understand a thing I am talking about and that is ok. You obviously don't know me very well or you aren't sopposed to understand it. You deside which one it is for you.

Ok Well I guess I'll let you go now. Have fun everyone! Stay safe.
~~RED~~

Hi everyone. I missed you all I know that you didn't miss me but that's ok. I have been very busy these last few days. I am excited that this weekend is Easter. I love Easter. I am going home this Saturday cuase my Dad's birthday party is Saturday afternoon. Then I get to be home with my Family on Easter. I still have to go buy a new dress. I think I'll go friday cuase I don't have to work or go to school. Sweet!

I hope you all have a good day. I wish I could say more. I most likely will later just not now. I don't have time. So much to say so little time.

Love you all!
~Red~

Hey all. It is so beautiful out today. I think I am going to wash my car and clean it out. That way I can be outside but still get something done. Ok well I am going to go out and enjoy the day now. Later
RED~

What's up? Ok what is going on with everyone getting engaged? All around me are people making mistakes, mistakes that will change their lives forever. Enough. Later Y'all

Red~

Hurt/Pain/Anger:
This is something I have done to people around me and I am sorry if one of these people is you. I apologize for what ever it is I have done to hurt you. It is also something I have done without meaning to do it. I have hurt some of my best friends and now I have to deal with that. I feel like I am a horriable friend. I am a hugh flirt and this is creating a problem for my friends and I. I don't realize when I am flirting, also some things that other people consider flirting I don't. This creates a problem with miscomunication.

Let me fill you all in on something. I don't want a boyfriend right now! Is that a hugh shock to any of you? I know that some of you think that I am after all these different guys. Or that I am messing around with all these different guys. I hang out with guys becuase girls are so freaking annoying. They are petty, childish, catty.........I could go on and on but I will stop. There are very few girls that I actually like, and get along with. It seems like girls never get out of highschool stupidity. This is one reason I am so glad I am out of highschool and that I never went to public High school. I was homeschooled. If I would have gone to public school I would have been in so many fights, It's not even funny.

Don't think that is all I do. Don't think that I am a violent person. I wouldn't want this to get twisted around and people think that all I do is cause fights to fight. Also I don't want you to think that just becuase you are a girl I am going to automatically hate you or anything. I admit that if I was reading what I just wrote that is what I would think. Its not like that though. I am just saying that I am more comfortable around guys therefore I tend to stick to hanging out with guys.

OK I'm done starting fights now.
Don't hate me.
Red~

Hey what's up! Sorry I have neglected everyone and not posted for a while. Lets see we shall update.
Never go to a baseball game when it is raining then park a long way away. Jon, Kittle, and I did that. We were freezing by the time we got there. I went in a bought a new sweater so that at least the top half of my body would be dry. It was so bad I could ring out my clothes and tons of water came off. So then we sitting in the upper deck and a ton of wind was going on up there. So I was so cold. I went to the bathroom and tried to get warm. I took off my shoes to ring out my socks. The bathroom attendent saw my toes and saw that they were like purple turning black and she told me to go to the First Aid to see what they could do for me. Well I went to guest services to find out where it was and the woman I spoke to asked me why I needed to go there so I told her and she took me to the First Aid in the basement. She asked me if I could walk on them I told her not really. So she asked me if I wanted a wheelchair. I told her no that I could walk. She kept asking me if I wanted one but just kept telling her that I didn't. I got there and I told the nurse what happened. She told me to go into the bathroom and take off my pants ( they were soaked) and my shoes and she was going to put everything in the dryer. SO I sat there in the room watching the Game on TV and trying to get warm. I had like 5 sheets and they gave me some cool sox that have the "sox" syble on them. Then I met this hot guy. He was really nice. He flirted with me. It was fun. Then we went home that was fun... (very sarcastic there) Now we are chillin at Jons. Fun stuff man.

I think that is enough for you to read for now. I'll talk to you tomorrow.
Love Peace and Chicken Grease!
Red~

Ok so now we have people posting under many different alias'. If you have something to say then why don't you just have the courage to say it. If you don't have the balls to tell everyone who you are, then you shouldn't say anything you should just keep quiet. As for me and my "Drama", I will admit there seems to be something that I am always involved in, however I never said that I wanted to be involved it in it in the first place. So before you go assuming things maybe you should talk to me about it. Why can't people mind there own business? I would really love that. I thought that when I left my small town I would at least escape that, boy was I wrong. And you may be thinking that I "stick my nose" in other people's business, but only if they ask me to. I don't just go find drama. I don't go looking for other people's problems. If they come to me which they do all the time (not that I really mind cause they are my friends and I want to help them in anyway I can) then I give them my oppinion. If they are close to me then I can tell what is wrong with them. Then I ask if they are ok, if I know that they need to talk about it then I keep asking, if I feel like they would rather be left alone then I do that.

So Let's recap... mind your own business!

I started school, my first day of class went really well. I have math every morning 10-10:50 then Tuesday and Thursday I have English from 11-12:someting... I went and bought a bunch of stuff for school today. That was fun. Isaac went with me, we ran a bunch of arrands. He makes me laugh alot! This kid is so funny. Oh well I guess I should go now before I get myself in even more trouble.

What's on my mind right now: "I'm sending out an S.O.S. to you.........Message in a bottle"
Later Skaters.

This past week had been a very interesting one. I have come to know a person that I was just merely accaintances with. I didn't think I would become as close to this person as I have and I am so glad that I have taken the time to know them. (this person will from here on out be referred to as X) To X I want to thank you and tell you that I love you no matter what happens in the future.

For all of you who asked and or read this, My fashion show went awsome. I had a ton of fun. I met so very interesting people. I got some pictures as soon as I figure it out I will post them Promise. Thank you too all of you who prayed for the show to go well.

Work sucks. That's all I can really say about that subject.

To all of my friends back home: I miss you all very very much. I will see you guys soon when I come home for Randy's Birthday Party. You have to let me know what is planned. Randy, I hope you are having fun with your new apartment. I had some stuff I could have really used you to be here for. (sorry if that doesn't make any sense.)
I can't wait to see you.

OK Here goes. This has gone to far. I will now atempt to straighten everything out.
Jon, You know we aren't dating. Stop antagonizing people. It gets me in trouble.
Joe, Jon isn't attacking you. He actually was sympathizing with you. He was saying that he understands your feelings. If anything he was telling me that I am a bit** for not realizing how hurt you are by all of this. Also about him being 21 and knowledgeable, he said that he is ONLY 21 however he does know quiet a bit about alot of things.
Now this is finished. No more. I don't want to hear anything else about it unless it is "dude I misunderstood what you said." That goes for both of you!
Me, who ever the heck you are. Stay out of business you don't know about you moron.
I think that is everything I am going to straighten out right now.

Anna, Thank you sweety for agreeing with me on Jon's blog. I also agree with you and what you said about them not reading it.

I really hate it when friends fight. Mostly becuase I can't stand to see them mad and hurting each other. It afects everyone they are around. Sometimes I feel like my life is a freaking Soap Opera. This friend is mad at this friend.. This guy likes this girl who likes this other guy who likes this other girl... and on and on and on.... When will it ever end? Will my life always be filled with such drama? Will I ever feel like I don't have to play peace maker all the time. To answer my question. Probably not. It will most likely always have a life filled with drama. I just hope that someday my children don't have to deal with all the crap I have had to deal with. However I know that my children will have crap all there own to deal with. Sometimes I think... Is any of this going to matter in 5 or 10 years. I don't know. I know that stupid stuff isn't so why bother. It is in my nature I guess. I have it. My new goal is to not worry about the small stuff or the stuff that I am not directly involved in. I hope I can do this.

Ok that is enough said for now. Good night to all. I love you and take care.

I am very mad... i just lost a very long post. STUPID KEYBOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well I will just post it tomorrow. or I should say later today.

People are crazy!

Ok here's something new. I have just been informed that certain people are "concerned" about how I make my money and how I can manage to have an apartment, car, and still buy stuff.... Here's another thought. How I make my money and how I support myself is my business and no one elses. Therefore stop "worrying" about me. I am not doing anything dishonest. I'm not starving. My parents aren't taking care of me. If you have a problem with this then mind your own dang business! So stop asking my roommates and trying to find out where it is coming from. If you have a question about it ask me if you don't have to balls to do that then obviously isn't not your place to discuss with anyone else.

Money is to dang important to people. Leave me alone about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't borrow money, I don't gamble it away so why do you worry about it? This is a subject that I have very strong feelings about. Just leave it alone!

So I have rehearsal tomorrow. I also have to go buy a dress tomorrow before work, which means that I have to get up in the morning and go pick out and buy a dress. That sort of sucks cause I don't want to get up. Friday is the Fashion Show already. I am so freaking nervous. I don't know why but all of a sudden it just hit me. This is hugh. What if I mess up and fall or something. I'm sure I'll be fine but what if I do mess something up. It is going to be on TV. It's not like I can just be like yea I did great.. People will actually see me messing up. Ok Enough of that before I really start to freak out. I really need to stop being such a stupid Girl! What is wrong with me. I didn't used to be like this. I will have to work on that.

Oh yea I have heard that there is questions going around if Jon and I are dating or together or anything. The answer is no. We aren't together we just hang out cause well he actually calls me and we are free at the same times. So to put all your worried minds to rest. Jon and I are not together. Now you can sleep safely. Gees people. I can't be around any guy with out you thinking that I am with him.

Nate and I were talking and I was telling him how I want to get into better shape then I am now. So he has desided to put me on a strict diet and exersice schedule. It sucks but I know that it is worth it. So in order for me to stay with it. We have desided that if I eat something that I cannot have or don't work out I can't get on the computer or see my friends. There for I know that I will stay with it. Ok that's it for now I have company I am going to entertain. Later Yall

Love Peace and Chicken Grease.
Red~

Work kinda sucks. Just so that everyone knows that. I worked 11 hours Saturday 11 Hours on Sunday and 10 Hours Today. Long freaking days. My feet hurt cause I was in heels the whole time.

For future reference never ever give my phone number out to anyone that is trying to pick me up!!!!

OK I am done now before I get into trouble with my talking. I have to sensor my self a little bit now. I don't want everyone to get mad at me. So I just shut up and stay out of trouble. Oh well. Maybe soon I will just blow up and let everything out and then end up probably everyone mad at me.

Love Peace and Chicken Grease
Red~

I am going to be so freaking busy tomorrow. I have to listen to a bunch of actors that think they are good. It's painful it really is.

I am watching Bring it On. It's a good movie. Even though I don't really care for cheerleaders. They are to girlie for me.
I have to do a bunch of laundry so I am actually staying in tonight just chillin. OK that's it for now. Later Yall.

Red~

Hi everyone. I just thought I would tell you it is beautiful outside. It is sopposed to be 65 this weekend. The one weekend I have to work all day Saturday and Sunday and it's sopposed to be 65. That really stinks. I'll get over it I guess.

Nate and I went downtown yesterday. Actually it was last night. We had fun. We desided that this summer we are going to go downtown more often. So many great pictures.

I don't like it when people think that they know me. They don't, no one really knows me not even me. I know me more then anyone else and I still don't know me.

I need my hair cut. I don't know how yet but I think I am going to get it styled. I don't know.If you have any ideas you can leave them on my guest book. Just thinking about it not sure yet.

I think that work sucks. I am here and doing nothing. Don't tell my boss that but there really isn't anything to do. I have done it all already. I am so freaking bored! Later yall

Red~

In about an hour it will be Nate's birthday. so I am going to say happy birthday to him now. Happy birthday Nate.

Fact: One of the sweetist and Sexiest things that a guy can do is to be with you late at night and just put on music and ask you to dance with them. Just the two of you. It makes you feel so special.

Karate in the house isn't a good thing. People get hurt. Like when Kristin hurts Nathan. It's funny.

so much more to say... so much left unsaid...

Last night Joe and I sat down and talked about alot of things. Things that I am not going to explain now. He asked me if when I came into town if he could see me and if we could talk and stuff. I'm not sure about that yet. I just don't know if I am ready to start hanging out with him and start talking to him all the time again. I will have to pray about this one alot. Please pray for me if you are reading this to help me make the right decision.

I have to go get in the shower soon cause I need to get on the road to go back to Chi. town. So I guess I should get going and write more later.
Red~

If I am the bigger person shouldn't it make me feel better to know that? I don't think so. Cause the other person is still being a baby and being a jerk. Whatever if the other person wants to sit and wallow in self pity and sorrow I guess that is there right. It doesn't make any sence to me but whatever floats your boat I guess.

I was at Lassiters last night and this guy walks up to me and says: "excuse me miss, I have been noticing you all night I don't mean to be a nusence (sp?) but I thought I might just give you this and hope that you would use it". I was like thank you. He gave me a peice of paper with his phone number on it. It was sweet but I had to laugh cuase at the time that he was doing that I had another guy sitting by me (a friend of my Niece) that was hitting on me. Guys... they don't ever think about anything else. At least not the ones around here.

So 3 parties down 1 to go. My grandparents party is today. I have to go get ready for it now. Have a good day. Love to all!

Red~

Uptown Theatre is freakin awsome. I can't wait for the fashion show. I went for my fitting today. All the clothes fit me like they were made for me. It was sweet. I have lots of hats which is awsome cause I love hats.

My friend Jessica and I were hanging out tonight, we were so wired. We were acting like we were drunk or on something. However we weren't on any type of drug nor had we been drinking. I was so funny. Everyone thought we were on something.

I am tired now. I think I'll go to bed..............Remember...............Jesus Loves Me......... Yes he does
No go to sleep! No talking,...... Ok I love you... I love you too now go to sleep~

That sucks I had this long thing writen out then it just deleted it sucky.

Yea I have a guest Book.. Anyone who reads this better sign it! Love to all!
ES

I like being here but sometimes I miss my friends back home and the way we would just hang out and not really do anything. But then I go home and realize how glad I am that I got out of that routine. I couldn't handle it. I do stuff all the time that I don't know if I can just chill and not do anything for long periods of time. I do really miss the people though.. At least some of them.. And they know who that are.

David is trying to help me set up a guest book. I have one made up just have to get it to post to the site. We'll see what we can do.

I have Tim McGraw playing all the time right now so I have song lyrics running through my head all the time. Awsome cd.

Ok now I can tell everyone what my secret is... My brother came home with me! Yeah .. he got to meet all my friends up here. Fun stuff. I'm glad they got along. I am at work right now. Nothing is going on here. It is so freaking boring. and I still have an hour and ahalf. sucky huh? yea i think so. My bosses are out of town for a while. Great times... I have my fitting on Friday. I am excited about that. I found out that the show is going to be recorded by a tv station. A local one but none the less it will be recorded. Hopefully I will be able to get a copy of it.

I have heard that certain people read my blog that I was unaware even knew that I had a blog. I would like to say Hi to them right now. HI>

I will be back in Thomson again this weekend. My Nefew is having his 16th birthday party this Saturday and then Sunday my grandma and grandpa Peterson's wedding anniversary party. Fun stuff let me tell you.

I want it to stop snowing. It is time for winter to be over and summer to start.

Buh Bye ; )

I am home! I got home last night and stopped by college group. I got to see everyone so that was cool. I have a secret that I wish I could tell everyone but that just isn't possible right now. Some people.. like the people up here, know what that secret is. But I wish I could tell everyone. Oh well. I am going to go shopping now. I'll blog more later promise.

well to everyone that reads this. I am in Tennessee. It is so pretty and warm here. It is 60 degrees outside. Nice. My brother took me to the Ozon Falls today. It is so beautiful. I got lots of pictures and video of it to show everyone when I get back. My brother's computer is so freaking slow it really sucks. I can't handle it.

Jason is a dork. If you haven't done that prediction thing that is on his blog. DON'T.

Ok that's it for now we have to go have more fun!
Later~ Red

Today I was at work actually it was tonight and one of my bosses called me and said that she quit! Just like that. I am going to visit my brother tomorrow! Driving all the way by myself most likely. It is going to be a long trip. It takes like I would say 8 1/2 to 9 hours. Oh well I am excited about seeing my brother. However I am starting to get sick of driving everywhere. I had to drive home last weekend, then to Tennessee this weekend then next weekend I have to go home again for my Grandma and Grandpa's anniversary. Then I don't plan on going anywhere for a while. Including home. I have stuff to get done around here. Ok that's it for now.

l8r sk8rs

My shoes came! I bought a new dress on valentines day then I ordered shoes to go with the dress and when I was on my way home they came in the mail. Awsome! When I got to work today I found out that I got a modeling Job in March. It is going to have quite a bit of publicitly so that will be cool. It is a Charity event so all of the tickets that are sold and all the proceeds go towards that charity. It will be vintage style clothes. So exciting. I have to go the 7th 2 get fitted for the clothes. Then the show is actually on the 21st there is rehearsal on the 20th. The show will be down town.

I just want everyone to know that David and Nathan are both very ticklish so you should try to tickle them and see the reaction that you get out of them. It is very funny.

I love to dance. I don't know if everyone knows this or not but I have danced since I was 9 years old. It is my passion.

That is it for now.

Red~

So this is my first blog from my parents house. I'm sure there will be more from here. Updates: The youth group went skiing. Had a good time but Tim kept pushing me over and laughing at me when I tried to get up. Dork. I couldn't really stop so I Just threw myself on the ground. BAD IDEA~~ I hurt. All over. My butt hurts from throwing myself down. My leg hurts from the same thing. My upper arms and shoulder area hurts cause when you are getting off the lifts and moving around to the next hill you have to use your arms to get your self there. So I am sore cause I'm not used to useing those muscles.(sp?) I went to the chiropractor today and he cracked my back so good! I love my chiro. He always fixes me. I think I am going to go home tonight instead of tomorrow though. I really want to go home and see everyone. I didn't get home until about 3ish last night so I think I am going to take a nap before I take that long boring car ride back. Oh well. Lots more to say just that noone that reads this would understand anything of it. Ok I'm done now.

Love, Peace and Chicken Grease~

I am at work right now. I really don't want to do anything. So I thought I would blog. But then I don't really have anything to blog about so this is going to be one of those really pointless blogs. Last night Nate, Kristin, Dave, Steve and I were sitting and talking at our house about nothing inparticular. And Krisin asked Nate if he thought he could bench press David. Nate replied with oh yeah no problem and David responded with let's not see if he is right. I said come on Nate lets see. David said no really that's ok. I go ok then try to bench press me. So he did. It was funny. He put a hugh thumb print in my side where he had ahold of me. David just happen to have had his camera with him so he video taped it. It was funny to watch. I get off in 10 minutes then I am going home to get ready for Nate and I to go work out at the gym tonight. Fun stuff. He is going to yell at me cause I ate at work. Oh well. Later~

So last night I was out late again. Luck for me I found my keys at the Rauch household Sunday, so now I can stay out late if I want to and don't have to worry about someone being awake when I come home. The bad thing about staying out late is that I just didn't want to get up today. So I was in bed till about 1:30 this afternoon. Not that I couldn't have gotten up before that but I just didn't feel like it. I was awake many times this morning, I just didn't want to get out of bed. How lazy am I? (I'm glad I don't have a guest book yet that you could answer that in) So now the problem is that I don't have any time to do anything else but get ready for work and eat something before I leave. I guess that I am going to have to just get up alot earlier tomorrow to get everything accomplished that I didn't get done today. Oh well. Plus I have to get everything ready for our Ski trip this weekend! I can't wait to watch everyone try to ski. From what I understand no one has ever really skied. This should be comical to watch. I am glad we are bringing a video camera and still cameras.The photos we get out of this trip are going to be priceless. But my worry is how I will hurt myself this time? I already am going to wrap my wrist and my ankel... we shall see what I come back with wrapped.

Well I have to get ready for work now.

Last night at Next Phase, we had so much fun! We had karaoke going all night. I made a hugh fool of my self but that's ok becuase it was fun. And somehow when ever I got up with someone to sing it was a song that I thought I knew well but then really didn't realize there were that many words in it. Just some random trivia did you know that Karaoke is Japanise for Tone Deaf? It would make sense wouldn't it? If you were there last night you would know that is true. Good times. Anyway our Ski trip is this weekend! I hope everyone can come. It is going to be so much fun. (i hope anyway)

I was playing hockey with the guys yesterday and little Rauch hit the puck and it flew up and nailed my ankle. Now in result of that. My ankle is swollen and brused. But it was fun so I guess that is the price you pay for having fun? I hope not all the time though or I am going to get hurt alot!

Not much else happening so I think I am done for now.

L8r Sk8rs!

Ok so I have a question. Why are guys so stupid? They think that they are in love, then they let thier girls walk all over them? I mean HELLO get a clue! They are just using you as a back up. They (the girls) know that their guy isn't going anywhere which gives them free reign over they Guy. I thought about it and I do feel bad for the guys, but only in the beginning. After a while they are just asking for it. If the guys are stupid enough to stay around then they obviously like being treated like this. And if they don't then why don't they get some "guts" and tell the girls to take a flying hike! Guys try to be nice but come on. Some girls just take advantage of guys like that. They know that you aren't going to leave them. So the Girls feel like they can mess around and just go back to their Guys and say that they are sorry and everything is fixed. (if they even say their sorry) It is sickening! (sp?) It makes me want to grab the guy and smack them to see if they realize what is going on. And it makes me want to just scream at the girls. How could they do that to someone that obviously cares about them.

Ok I am done ranting about that for the moment.

Now on to another thing: I AM A BIG GIRL I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I CAN MAKE MY OWN DESISIONS!!!! Ok I am 19 going on 20. I am responsable. I have an apartment. I have a car. I have tons of things that I have to take care of. So what in the world would make anyone thing that I can't make up my own mind. That I can't see weather someone is ok for me to hang out with for the day? So heres the deal, Unless you are my Mother, Father, Carol or Pastor Mike. Don't try to be. I don't mind when someone just voices their oppinion. No problem what so ever. I do however mind when someone trys to treat me like I am a 2 year old and can't make my own desisions.

Ok that last part may be alittle bit mean but I don't care. It is how I feel.

Love,Peace, and Chicken Grease~

I don't know why but I have a really bad feeling about tomorrow night. Maybe I am just crazy but I think something is going to happen tomorrow and I don't think I am going to like it. We shall see. I miss my brother. I really really miss my brother. I am going to see him in two weeks. He lives in Tennesse. It is a long drive but Nate and I are going to go. It should be fun. Lots of stories with that one. ;) I had a very eventful day at work today. The girl that works with me had to go to Office Max and was gone for about 2 hours. There is alot of stuff that happens where I work in 2 hours. Then the Owner of my employment desided to come and work with me. That sucked cause I had to work around him. I had to do my job, the other girls job and then show him how to do things on the computer. And answer the phone in between all of this. But dispite it all I had a good time at work. I don't know maybe it was the Frappacino that I had before I went in. Whatever it was I'm glad becuase I wasn't having the best day before I went in and I was dead tired. But I ended up having a pretty good night and wasn't that tired when I got home. wierd huh?

So tomorrow is the dreaded Day. Valentines Day. I'm not really against it, however I am reminded of my last V-Day. Joe bought me a singing Valentine. 6 Guys in white suites and Red vests came to my apartment and Sang to me. They sang Wild Irish Rose and It's in His Kiss. It was funny,and very sweet of him. One thing that was good about him I guess. OK I'll stop with that now. I am going to try to keep myself busy tomorrow. I am going to clean my apartment. (really really clean) then I am going to meet a friend for Lunch. Then I don't know what I'll do till Danielle gets off work. But when she gets off work I plan on doing something with her. I don't know what after that. It shall be interesting.

Ok I am going to stop boring all of you now. Later

Ok so day two starts. It is very cold out side. I am sick of being sick becuase of the cold weather. I am ready for it to be warmer again. Just think; cook outs, baseball games, going to the beach, sand volleyball, basketball, all that great stuff. Ummm I can't wait. This will be my first summer in the Chicago land area. So I am even more excited then the rest of you. However that also means me getting burnt to a crisp. That's just the way it goes I guess. Lots of sunscreen that's my moto. Plus all the new summer clothes are out! And think, when you are in Church on Sunday's you won't freeze your butt off. Warm... summer... :)

I think that's it for now. I have to call Steve cause we are going to go to see Little Shop of Horror's at 2. Fun stuff!
One more thing. When I told David about my blog he said that he was interested in reading it to see how I go about it. He said that some people take it very seriously, some just don't care what they write, and some are just updating you in their lives. I thought about it a minute and I told him mine will most likely be a mixture of them. I think I will write some very unimportant stuff and then some serious things once in a while. We shall see.

How do you set up a Guest Book? Need help on that one. OK Later
(Danielle I hope this is long enough for you ;p )