"I want a man to stand beside me, not in front of or behind me, I want two arms to hold me not own me, I want a man that stands beside me"

I am at my parents house. It's funny. I haven't really been here in a while yet sometimes it feels like I still live here. Also it doesn't really feel like Christmas.
I mean I know it is but it just doesn't feel like Christmas time.
I think that might have something to do with the fact that we don't have any snow..(at my rents house) so to me it doesn't feel like it's Christmas time yet. Im just not in the mood I guess.

side note: I am thinking about not coming home for Christmas next year and just skipping it. I don't know. Maybe if I skip it one year then I'll really want it the next year. I'll have to wait until next year to deside though.

I have talked to Jon 2 times since he has been in Flordia...he said its 75 and nice out there. Yea you suck Jon. I mean if it isn't snowing then I want it really warm not just sort of cold and nothing.

I miss some of my friends. I'm not talking about my friend at my parents house cause I miss all of them. I'm talking about the people that I started hanging out with in VP to begin with. Oh well guess I should just get used to that....seeing as how I'm going to be out of the area for very long periods of time soon.

With Christmas almost over Kristins wedding seems so much more real to me and so much sooner then I thought. It exciting in a way.

I think I'm done for now. however I may post again tomorrow,
Merry Christmas all,
Love
Red