I hate how things never turn out like you expect them to or they way nothing ever goes the way it should. It sucks major monkey balls. I can't stand the way everything is going lately. I don't know what I can do about it. The worst thing is I'm afraid I can't do anything at all about any single part of it.

On another note.....My Grandma's best friend of 58 years had pasted away on Wednesday. The visitation was last night and the funeral is today. I'm not looking forward to it let me tell you. I mean I know that she's in a better place and all but I still miss Aunt Marie and I can't stand to see my grandma so upset and sad. I can't even imagine the pain she is going through. She said that she hasn't been able to sleep since Wednesday because all of the old memories just keep going through her head. But Grandma is a very tough lady and she will be fine I know.

I think I'm going to go back to bed now. I'm pissed off at every little thing and it's not a good state to be in.

Bye empty void,
EE