Have you ever lost a best friend? If you have then you know what it feels like. Mostly it just hurts and sometimes depending on the reason for losing that friend, it makes you angry. Angry because sometimes it's nothing that you did, it is just something that you can not change. Even if you could change it maybe you wouldn't. This is something I've had to deal with lately. I've tried not to get too upset about it or to just tell my self that I haven't really lost a best friend. That we just grew apart a bit. Well I guess that we grew apart more then could be helped. However I don't really know if any of this is my fault. I think that I should take some responsibility in it however I don't really think I am responsible for it. It hurts.

I was discussing this with another best friend of mine, we agreed to never, NEVER let this happen to us. I don't think I would be able to handle that. All I know is, it suprises you who your real friends are in the end. I know that this isn't the end. Still, it feels like it is the end of one chapter of my life and the beginning of a new chapter, I just wish this particular friend would be there through the next stage too. It sucks but I guess I should get used to it.

If anyone from College Group still reads this I miss you guys and tell Carol and Mike I say Hi, and give the girls a hug and kiss for me.

Right now I am in a pity mood so I'll stop typing before it gets too bad.

Good night all,
Strawberry Shortcake