HAVE YOU EVER................

That is pretty much how I feel about everything right now. I mean when you are talking to someone and trying to work things out don't you just wonder, have you ever? I do, all the time. That is the problem, I can't shut off my brain , I ask questions I don't know if it would be better to know or to not know. Knowledge is a tricky thing. You could go along perfectly happy until all of a sudden you find out something that you "needed" to know but then you wonder would it be better if you just don't know. In my case I usually just ask the question then back lash later. I think for me most things are better known then not, mostly because I have a very active imagination and I can usually control it but when I just don't know the answer to something and it's something that is going to bother me if I don't know, my mind just takes off, it creates scenarios much worse then the truth. I did say most times right? Well it's the 5% or less that it isn't as bad as I make it out to be that really make me think that maybe I shouldn't ask any more questions.

Have you ever had a dream that scared that shit out of you. You wake up and think it is real, you aren't quite sure where you are or what is going on? Yeah I have them quite often, but last night sucked. Things that bother me during the day and I try to just put it off surface during my dreams. Then they torment me through out the day. It sucks!!!!!!

I haven't really been doing alot lately just taking care of Mackynzie and Jacob and hanging out with Rich. Not much has been going on. I have been working on my My Space page so it doesn't look like crap however I still plan on blogging here so don't think you will lose me.

I think I'm going to try to get some dreamless sleep tonight. Later all.
Erin