HAVE YOU EVER................

That is pretty much how I feel about everything right now. I mean when you are talking to someone and trying to work things out don't you just wonder, have you ever? I do, all the time. That is the problem, I can't shut off my brain , I ask questions I don't know if it would be better to know or to not know. Knowledge is a tricky thing. You could go along perfectly happy until all of a sudden you find out something that you "needed" to know but then you wonder would it be better if you just don't know. In my case I usually just ask the question then back lash later. I think for me most things are better known then not, mostly because I have a very active imagination and I can usually control it but when I just don't know the answer to something and it's something that is going to bother me if I don't know, my mind just takes off, it creates scenarios much worse then the truth. I did say most times right? Well it's the 5% or less that it isn't as bad as I make it out to be that really make me think that maybe I shouldn't ask any more questions.

Have you ever had a dream that scared that shit out of you. You wake up and think it is real, you aren't quite sure where you are or what is going on? Yeah I have them quite often, but last night sucked. Things that bother me during the day and I try to just put it off surface during my dreams. Then they torment me through out the day. It sucks!!!!!!

I haven't really been doing alot lately just taking care of Mackynzie and Jacob and hanging out with Rich. Not much has been going on. I have been working on my My Space page so it doesn't look like crap however I still plan on blogging here so don't think you will lose me.

I think I'm going to try to get some dreamless sleep tonight. Later all.
Erin

So much has happened since I last posted. I'll try to start at the top and work my way to the bottom,

Last week my sister and her husband went out of town for about 4 days so Mackynzie Rich and I stayed at their house to watch over my nephews. Tyler who is 13 and Jacob who is almost 3. My other nephew Quentin, who is 14, also stayed with us. My sister Angie has a three story house so there was a lot of room to roam for Mackynzie and she loved it. We cooked out every day but one. It was great. The kids had fun and actually so did I. Then when we came home Rich, Mackynzie and I spent a few hours driving around looking at houses for sale. There are some cheap houses for sale around here.

Lets see, I got some bad news from a good friend and I have been thinking alot about them. Their family is always in my prayers.

My Dad's birthday was yesterday so we spent the day out at my parents house. We had a cookout for him, it was a wonderful day for it too. It was nice and warm with the sunshine so bright for the whole day then when everyone had gone home and as the day drew to an end we had a nice light rain. It smelled so good. You know that spring rain smell. I love it. Then it cleared up and actually was a pretty warm night. Rich and I watched movies on TV until I fell asleep.

Over all it was a pretty good week now I just have to spend this week cleaning my house. Since I haven't been home for more then a few hours at a time or more then just to sleep my house is falling apart. Great huh? Not really.

So I guess I'll be off to clean.
Later all,
Erin

PS I finally gave in. I have a dreaded MY Space. I know I know I know. anyway if anyone could help me change the background of my page let me know. Later