I know I'm a huge dork. I spent about two and half weeks reading the Harry Potter series. A few of my friends and Rich were talking about them and I was like ok whatever. Then my best friend Sarah says, you have to read them, they are so much better then the movies. I hemed and haughed a long time then I gave in. Then when I started reading them I had a very hard time putting them down. OH MY FREAKING GOSH. They were awesome. I wish I had more to read. It reminded me how much I love to read, and I need to get some more books to start reading on a regular basis. I don't really have anything else to say. Later all.

Today I had a long conversation with my dad about everything going on in my life. Which I haven't done since he had his heart attack, I guess I just figured he had enough to deal with that he shouldn't have to listen to me whine about my life. It felt really good though to talk to him. I think that maybe I didn't really deal with everything because it didn't seem real. I wanted to be in control with my life but as weird as it may sound, I talk about almost everything with my dad and it doesn't seem like the last five months actually took place. Now however it seems like everything is hitting me harder than it ever has. I think it is a very very good thing though.

Next a little update on Mackynzie. She is teething. I don't mean like getting a tooth or two I mean like hard core teething, 8 to be exact. ALL four of her what I call her k9's are coming in and as I just found out today, so are her molers. I couldn't believe it. She already has her front 4 teeth top and bottom, so she will have a full set of teeth before she is two. My baby is growing up to fast. I started crying when I thought about it today. I know it sounds stupid, but she is learning everything so fast. She is also potty training. Which she happens to be doing very well at. She went all afternoon with out an accident. YEAH!!! I can't wait until I don't have to buy diapers anymore.

I hate it when the person you want to talk to doesn't want to talk to you. You may not have alot to say but you just want to hear their voice or just chat for a few mins. I miss my friends. All of you.

I think that is enough. Later all.

The last couple of days in my life have been scary and releaving all in one. Wednesday Mackynzie woke up coughing and congested, I thought great Kynzie's got another cold. We got up and went on about our business. Through out the day Kynzie was having a harder time breathing, I gave her some Tylenol Cold, thinking it was just a cold, when that didn't work I gave her some Albuterol, that didn't work, I got her calmed down and she went to sleep. I of course knew I wasn't going to get much sleep cause Mackynzie wasn't sleeping well, she was haveing a hard time breathing, as most do when they are congested. When we woke up the next morning I called her Dr. and told them what was going on and that I need to come in and have her checked out. SO I went into the Dr's office. yeah...... We ended up having to do a breathing treatment on her and then she was sent to have 2 chest x-rays. As I'm sure you can imagine, it isn't much fun having to do eather to a one year old. Finally the Doctor told me that she has Asthma, and she was having a saver asthma attack. Doctor Bhatia said that she would send her home as long as I was sure to give her breathing treatments every four hours, and two other meds twice a day. Also I had to bring Mackynzie in today (the next day) again, for her to be checked again. Otherwise she was going to put Mackynzie in the hospital, and if she doesn't like her progress today then she is going into the hospital. Luckly I have giving breathing treatments before and administered meds to her many times before. so every four hours we sit down and Mackynzie gets a breathing treatment, by this point she is more used to it, and behaves better usually we have to distract her by singing or playing peek a boo or something like that. However the machine that does the treatments, the Nebulizer is in the shape of a panda bear. Which is cute and it isn't so scarry for the little ones. Anyway, it's just been a crazy few days.

Later all.

Why do people stay in relationships because of fear? Fear is so crippling. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes just plain fear to be happy. If you live in so much fear how do you know if you are really happy or if you just convince yourself that you are happy so you don't have to "fear" anything. I guess I kinda of understand since I've become a mother I think my biggest fear is that I will somehow screw everything up, that I will be a bad mom, or that I will fail to do what is right for my daughter. I don't want to do anything that would cause my daughter to look back and say, why didn't you do this, or why didn't you do that? I would have had such a better life if you would have just....... (fill in the blank). Or why couldn't you have.......(fill in the blank). I think I haven't ever experienced fear like this. Looking from the outside, I guess people thought I wasn't ever afraid of anything, in actuality I was scared of not trying. Of not achiving whatever it was I thought I should try for. That was the biggest fear I had. NOW, I am scared on a daily basis and I hate that, I really really hate that. I can't wait until I have concord this latest fear. I think that is enough for now. Later all.

Erin

How do you get rid of anger? I am still trying to figure this one out, if anyone knows how to get rid of anger please be kind enough to share it with me. My body hurts. My head hurts. My soul hurts. I know the there is a thin line between love and hate but do you actually see a line or is it just a small slope, or maybe just gray area, I'm not quite sure. Right now I don't really see a line, I just see me on one side and both of them on the other, as if they are coexisting on the same playing field. I'm not sure if that is even possible but as for now that is what it looks like to me.. so I guess the real question is, can you hate someone you love and can you love someone you hate? If you can anwser any of these questions please please please shed some light on it for me, cause I'm in the dark baby.

i'm going to bed!!!!

I realized today that it has been a while inbetween my posts and for that I'm sorry. Although there are like what three people who still read it? Anyway, let's see what has been going on in my life. hum...... I have had some wierd dreams, some I don't even understand just cause they are crazy. I have been hanging out at my sisters house lately. Did you know that Friends, can relate to any one at some point in their life.

I really don't have alot to say right now. I think that is it for now.

bye

Today is a very exciting day.

It is Mackynzie turns one today. Which of course makes me sit and reminisce about one year ago today. Here is what I have come to remember. One year ago today I was in the Hospital, very very LARGE and very very uncomfortable. I was close to two hundred pounds, I was huge, and I'm very glad that I am not that big any more. I was on a lot of drugs, all legal of course. There was very large amount of family around me one year ago. My body was all sorts of messed up. Then of course my beautiful little baby girl was born. I am so happy that she is here with me. I couldn't imagine my life with out her. She is so wonderful. She walks, talks, and does just about everything I do. If I clean Kynzie cleans....or at least tries, usually making a bigger mess then when we started. She climbs on or up everything she can reach. She is such a little adult. She is singing, dancing, and has impeccable timing. She even claps to the beat of the music.

That is all I have to say for now. Later all.
Erin

So I just realized how long it's been since I posted last. The thing is, I stay at home all day long so I don't have a ton of stuff to post about any more, I mean really, how many times can you all read how awesome my daughter is? Even I would get bored reading about how great someone else's kid is all the time. So let me take a minute and try to figure out something to write.


HUM.......... HUM........ HUM..........
I know I'll tell you about a dream that I had, it was a great dream....

I dreamt that I won the lottery. It was AWESOME, the only thing that sucks is when I woke up it wasn't true. Sucks huh, yeah well, here's what happened.
I won the lottery then went shopping and bought Rich, Mackynzie and I a whole new wardrobe, then we had to buy new shoes to go along with it, then I spent the day getting pampered, the whole works too. I got a full body massage, a mani pedi, facial, my hair cut, and Rich got his hair cut and a mani too. We paid ever single bill we have have. We bought two new cars, and a lot of land out west somewhere. We had our house built and 6 extra houses for friends and family. Then while all of that was taking place, the houses being built, I had a wonderful wedding. It was freaking awesome. Not huge, not over extravagent just perfect. Also when Jordan got here we got her a whole new wardrobe also. I have to say I was breathing alot easier, no worries. Who ever said that money can't buy happiness has never been broke, and obviously wasn't trying hard enough.

That is my crazy thought for the day.
Now I have to TRY to get my house clean.
Later
Erin

Well let's see, what is going on with me? Not much really. Rich started working at his new job last week, he works thirds, that is about all of our news. I can't even think of anything to write about..... HA, I just thought of something.

OK What is with kids saying that they LOVE each other? I mean for example, my niece who is 13 has this boyfriend that she's had for I think two weeks or something like that and they are posting to each other, I love you, no I love you...... so on and so forth. I read this and snapped. Not in a mean way but in a Aunt looking out for her niece. They don't even know what love is let alone what the word means. She says, no Aunt Erin I mean Love like a friend. I told her that she better only mean it that way and that she should stop writing things like that. I have had this conversation with her many times before because she "dates" these guys and when she breaks up with them they try the "but I LOVE you" or the " Don't you LOVE me". Seriously people, when I was that age I knew I didn't LOVE any guy that I "dated" and I know that none of them LOVED me. There is no way any 12,13,14,15 year old LOVE each other, they may be infatuated with each other or even care about one another, but they don't LOVE each other. Actually I think that even into your early twenty's you may not really know what love is. Crazy kids. That makes me feel so old. But come on, all guys want is a bit SOUTH of your heart. You know even twenty year old and sometimes thirty year old, that's all they really want.

I read something interesting the other day that I thought was quite insightful. "Guys fall in love or think they are in love because of the feeling they get when they are with that person, so when that feeling fades or changes slightly they start looking for someone else to make them have that feeling again". That is so true. All you can hope for is to never have them lose that feeling. If they do then you are in for a world of pain. Trust me. When I read this it was like an eye opener. WOW I guess there really isn't anything you can do except try your best and if it all works out then great other wise, for lack of better wording right now, your world feels like it is closing in on you and it sucks. Eventually you hope to find the person that not only makes you feel amazing about your self and everything about you, but that also feels that you do the same for him. (or if you are a guy vise versa) I think that is enough insight into my feelings and thoughts now.

Later,
Erin

HAVE YOU EVER................

That is pretty much how I feel about everything right now. I mean when you are talking to someone and trying to work things out don't you just wonder, have you ever? I do, all the time. That is the problem, I can't shut off my brain , I ask questions I don't know if it would be better to know or to not know. Knowledge is a tricky thing. You could go along perfectly happy until all of a sudden you find out something that you "needed" to know but then you wonder would it be better if you just don't know. In my case I usually just ask the question then back lash later. I think for me most things are better known then not, mostly because I have a very active imagination and I can usually control it but when I just don't know the answer to something and it's something that is going to bother me if I don't know, my mind just takes off, it creates scenarios much worse then the truth. I did say most times right? Well it's the 5% or less that it isn't as bad as I make it out to be that really make me think that maybe I shouldn't ask any more questions.

Have you ever had a dream that scared that shit out of you. You wake up and think it is real, you aren't quite sure where you are or what is going on? Yeah I have them quite often, but last night sucked. Things that bother me during the day and I try to just put it off surface during my dreams. Then they torment me through out the day. It sucks!!!!!!

I haven't really been doing alot lately just taking care of Mackynzie and Jacob and hanging out with Rich. Not much has been going on. I have been working on my My Space page so it doesn't look like crap however I still plan on blogging here so don't think you will lose me.

I think I'm going to try to get some dreamless sleep tonight. Later all.
Erin

So much has happened since I last posted. I'll try to start at the top and work my way to the bottom,

Last week my sister and her husband went out of town for about 4 days so Mackynzie Rich and I stayed at their house to watch over my nephews. Tyler who is 13 and Jacob who is almost 3. My other nephew Quentin, who is 14, also stayed with us. My sister Angie has a three story house so there was a lot of room to roam for Mackynzie and she loved it. We cooked out every day but one. It was great. The kids had fun and actually so did I. Then when we came home Rich, Mackynzie and I spent a few hours driving around looking at houses for sale. There are some cheap houses for sale around here.

Lets see, I got some bad news from a good friend and I have been thinking alot about them. Their family is always in my prayers.

My Dad's birthday was yesterday so we spent the day out at my parents house. We had a cookout for him, it was a wonderful day for it too. It was nice and warm with the sunshine so bright for the whole day then when everyone had gone home and as the day drew to an end we had a nice light rain. It smelled so good. You know that spring rain smell. I love it. Then it cleared up and actually was a pretty warm night. Rich and I watched movies on TV until I fell asleep.

Over all it was a pretty good week now I just have to spend this week cleaning my house. Since I haven't been home for more then a few hours at a time or more then just to sleep my house is falling apart. Great huh? Not really.

So I guess I'll be off to clean.
Later all,
Erin

PS I finally gave in. I have a dreaded MY Space. I know I know I know. anyway if anyone could help me change the background of my page let me know. Later

I guess I haven't posted about Mackynzie in a while so I will be doing that now. I know every mother thinks their child is so great and so advanced. But if the Doctor tells you that isn't that a good thing? Sometimes I just think the Doctor is just saying that to make me feel good. Granted, she is walking by her self already, and has been for a while, (since she was 9 months) she eats what ever I give her, she has never eaten baby food, she would spit it out at me. She feeds her self, solids anyway, she climbs up on things, this one I'm still trying to get used to. She talks like a real little person, she can say quite a few words actually. If she sees something she likes she usually says "Oh Wow" or "Oh Boy", she points at things and says "is that", I tell her what it is then she moves on to the next thing, pointing and asking.

My Baby is my joy. In my dark days, Mackynzie was the only reason I got out of bed, she was the only one, or only thing, that could make me smile. I had to stay strong for her. I have to do what is best for her. I have to put her before everyone, even myself. While I was crying, she wiped my tears. When I was sad she would tip her head and smile at me or lean in and give me a kiss. My sweet little girl. She is my rock, my breath, my everything. All I want in life is to make her proud to me by Daughter, to give her everything she ever needs or wants.

I think that is all for now.

Stormy Weather

This last week has been one of many ups and downs, a heck of a lot of downs actually. Lets just say that my boyfriend and I have been going through very hard times. Actually to be more specific he has hurt me in ways that I didn't think was even possible. I didn't think he was capable of hurting me this way. He moved out. Moved far away for a few days. However he came back. Not back as in he is living here right now, but back as in he is in town and we are working on things. I know that a lot of people are thinking that he is just going to hurt me again. I know that I thought I knew him before and I always said he wouldn't ever hurt me and then he did, but I really believe that he has seen the devastation he has caused and would never do this again. I spent the first few days doing only the tasks that HAD to be done, like take care of my daughter. Everything else just kinda stopped. I have learned though that I have the best friends and family anyone could ever hope for. I was never left alone for any period of time. It was almost as if they were relaying the "care of Mackynzie and Erin". I know that wasn't actually planned or anything but it sure felt like it. And that is a great feeling. That no matter how hurt you are you have people there to take care of you and that still love you. However now Rich has moved back to town and we have seen him everyday spent many hours talking, crying, flirting, arguing, listening to each other, and spending time with our daughter. All of this has been completely helpful and is something that needed to happen. I don't think it needed to happen this way but at least there is healing happening. It will be a long rough road ahead and as long as both of us are willing to walk that road and help each other along the way, then I know this is going to work, that we are going to work. I can't believe that amount of love that I have for him, because if I didn't love him there is no way I would even be talking to him let alone spending time and working everything out. I know that some people may say that they don't think this will work, to those people I say, I have to do what makes me happy, and what I know is best for me, and Mackynzie, and that is being with Rich. I am willing to forgive, I don't think I will ever forget but I can forgive. I know I am strong willed and strong minded enough to make this work on my end, now its just up to him to make it work from his end.

I think that is enough news for now. Sorry if this is long and way to much info.

PS. To all my special friends that came to my rescue, you are my hero's. I love you all in very special ways. I just hope you know I am only going to be happy with Richard in my life, as my partner, as my lover, as my husband. Not that we are going to get married right away but I still see and want that future with him. I want that future for us.

Bye all,
Love you.
Erin

Hurt, Anger, Dispar, Pain, Desperation, Unimaginable, Shocked, Scared, unloved, broken, unworthy, lost, numb, unreal, bad dream, unsure, unhappy, beaten, stomped on, walked over, not good enough, its my fault, why, unfair, and more i just cant verbalize is how i feel right now.

The last few days have been just gorgeous out side. Mackynzie and I have spent them out of doors. Lets back up though. Saturday I had a Jewelery party which went very well I must say. My house got painted and cleaned up in time. Yea us. Then Sunday we went to church and then to my sisters house to hang out with her and the kids, Jake, Quentin, Tyler and Arri, Angie made burgers on the grill and a ton of side dishes. We all played outside that whole day. Then Monday Jacob, Mackynzie and I spent the day playing outside. We threw around a frisbee then we kicked a beach ball around then Rich went with us for a walk. Then we just played outside.

Not alot else has happened though. I guess that is enough of a post for now. Later all.

Erin

Ok Since everyone is asking for new music to listen to. I suggest going through your old cds and albums and relisten to everything. I have recently started doing this and have found that I miss certian songs or groups or cds or what not. I just put in American Hi-Fi and remembered how much I like this CD... The other thing about listening to old music at least for me...as you listening to the songs you remember what you were doing when you used to listen to that cd all the time. This one brings up memories from two different pasts.... one here in Clinton and one in Chicago. (or should I say the suburbs) Good times both of them.

Also just another new picture of Mackynzie.

So Friday Night this guy I know named TJ got very inebriated and walked in front of a moving car. The car didn't have time to stop and ended up hitting him. Now I'm not sure how this exactly happened or what he was doing. All I know is that TJ is in Iowa City and hurt very very badly. His skull is spilt open from ear to ear, he is in a comma, and isn't breathing on his own. He had a coronary embolism. Basically he is living on life support. The swelling in his head is going down but they don't know much because he was hurt so badly.

In other news.... Actually I don't really know if there is more news. But I think I will ramble on for a few minutes. Lets see Rich painted the trim in our living room, and now we just have to paint the walls themselves. Then it will look like a whole new house. And I have to find curtains, if anyone had any ideas then please let me know. Next week is my Jewelry party, so it has to be done by then. I just don't have enough room for everything we have. I would just start tossing things in the garbage however it isn't stuff we can toss. It is either stuff we have to keep or stuff we really want to keep. Mostly just little stuff, when piled together looks like a ton of stuff.

Do you ever just look at your life and say... I want more? I do all the time. Not more as in a different life, just more as in, I want a bigger house and better car, new clothes, new shoes, just more... I know that seems greedy but it's not like I wouldn't share. I keep having a dream that I win the lottery. I think this is a sign that I should play so I can win. If I won I would be the happiest person alive, well at least pretty damn close. I'm not saying that money equals happiness but if you think about it, it sure makes it easier to be happy. Think now, you wouldn't have to work, you wouldn't have to stress about bills, you could just be free to do whatever it is you want to do. I'm not saying that you wouldn't have other issues to deal with. You would have people trying to be friends with you just for money and free stuff. You would have people coming out of the wood work to get what you've got. However I would deal with that over dealing with problems or stresses about things I stress about now.

I think I'm done day dreaming.
Later,
Erin aka Mommy

Last night Mackynzie was trying to stand up using the bookcase and her hand slipped and she went face first into the shelf of the bookcase, splitting her top lip open. It started bleeding. This is the first time my baby has had a bloody anything. I handled it very well I didn't make a big deal about it I just wiped away the blood and tried to comfort her. She also handled it very well she cried a little, then sucked her thumb.

I know that not everyone has time to blog like I do, this being said, seriously people at least try to blog or post as you might say more frequently then you do. PLEASE. I get so bored reading the same thing over and over again. I'm not saying post everyday but at least every few days...cough, Kristin, David, Jon, cough.....

I have such weird dreams lately. They have nothing to do with shows that I'm watching or songs I have listened to or anything like that, just plain weird dreams. Sometimes about certain people sometimes about strange situations. Like last night I had a dream that an ex text messaged me and started giving me a hard time about the people I slept with after we had broken up. Then I responded with how many people that person had slept with before me, and while we were in a relationship. It had nothing to do with anything. It's not like I spend time thinking about this person however all of a sudden they pop up in my dreams. What the heck? So I think I will try to find a dream book online and see what it has to say.

Well, I think that's it for now, later all.
Erin

Ok so remember my rant about my-space people? Well the one thing that sucks is you can't leave them a message or sometimes even look at their sites unless you have a my-space... so what the hell? This pisses me off too. Like the way they get you to have an account is to not let you look at peoples sites or talk to them? DAMN MY SPACE

Thats it for now..

Have you ever had a friend that you thought was one of your best friends or at least knows you better then most other people. Then something happens, an unreturned phone call (or 5), a dodging your person, or just plain uninterested in hanging out with you? It makes you feel like crap, it hurts and makes you angry all at the same time. I mean what happened? At one time you know that the other person considered you close, at least close enough to spend time with you. What do you do? Do you confront the other person or do you just move on and let it go? I guess that just depends on what type of person you are. If you are a confrontational person then you ask them whats up other wise you just feel pain in quiet. The thing is I'm the confrontational type of person however this time I think that I will just let it go. It hurts to much and what exactally would I say? " Hey why don't you want to hang out with me?" Even as I say it in my head it sounds like I'm begging for the other person to be my friend and I do NOT beg for someone to be my friend. If you want to hang out and talk and be friends then great if not then just freaking let me know. That way I'm not acting like a freaking stalker or something. That is what I feel like, a stalker. Wow never wanted to be one of those.

If you are reading this and wondering if I'm talking about you, then that means you have been a crappy friend and that I am in one way or another talking about you. If you can't deside then yes. I am talking about you too. This post was writen with one specific person in mind however as my ranting continued I realize that it fits more then one person. DAMN. What is up with my friends? At least what or who I thought were friends.

ANYWAY< Mackynzie and I went to chicago for the day on Saturday and spent time with Kristin walking around the mall. It made me realize how much I miss Kristin and how much I miss malls with more then 3 stores in them. I miss Chicago, and the people in the burbs. Then Kristin, Mackynzie and I met Jon at OutBack and had dinner. It was good times. Then Jon and I hung out until I basically fell asleep sitting up then Kynzie and I crashed at Jons. We woke up the next morning and headed home.

Today we went out to my Parents house and hung out with them for a while until both kids were ready for naps. (Jacob and Mackynzie) Then we came home. Thats about it.
I think this is a long enough post.

Later,
Erin

long post lost much time wasted. will try to remember it and repost later

So a couple of nights ago I spent several hours cleaning out my e-mail account. I reread most of my old e-mails. I guess when I save e-mails I need to think about why I am saving them and not just put them into a folder because they were sent by any one person. What I mean by that is that I spent so much time going over stupid e-mails about plans for the next day or "hey just saying HI". Seriously not going to be saving anymore of those. However it made me think about things that had happened since those e-mails were sent and now. It seems like two different life times. If someone had told me back then that I would be living back in Iowa and be a Mom, a stay at home Mom at that, I would have probably laughed and blown them off as if they were talking crazy. Not that I'm saying I would change anything about my life now. What I am saying is that it hit me, just one small decision in life can define your whole future. When I moved back to Iowa it was because I was hurt and angry. I guess I thought that if I got far enough away I could run from the pain and the frustration of my life. However what happened is that I got stuck in a life that was very unhealthy and very unproductive. Then I met this great guy that was in the same situation as I was. We ended up spending just about every minute of every day (and night) together. We hung out at the same places with the same people like the same things. The only thing I ever asked was that he never ask me to stay here for him. Which he promised he would never do. There came a point when I had to decide to keep running or slow down and face my problems. Then there he was looking right back at me. It was a great feeling. To know that I had someone to face my problems with instead of having to face everything alone.

Then came Mackynzie, the only thing I think I've ever gotten right. Sometimes I just think, oh my goodness this little baby depends on me for everything. She can't do anything without me. WOW I'm a MOM. I know that this probably sounds stupid for anyone who doesn't have a baby or maybe even for some of you that do have children. But it still hits me, I have a daughter, I am someones Mom. Then as time has gone by, as Kynzie gets older, wow I've taken care of this little girl for this long? I don't know what the future holds for me. I just hope that when my daughter gets older she looks back and says, "you know my Mom did everything in her power to give me everything", and she is happy about that. That I don't let her down. That would be my biggest mistake in the world, my biggest regret.

I know that this means nothing to most of you. However it does to me. I'm done being "deep in thought" for now.

LATER

Hey Everyone this is a picture of Mackynzie... isn't she so damn cute? Well I think so..

I haven't been doing much just surfing the web and hanging out at home. Fun stuff I know!

I don't think I have alot to post so later all.

Erin

Hello to the still blogging world. I hope some of you still read this. If you don't you suck and if you do you ROCK! I will be updating this much more frequently then before because I got the internet finally. YEA ME!

OK so first rant of the year.... MY SPACE....... what the hell? I think this sucks. My reasons are basically simple. All I can tell from the spots I have visited is it's a way to post pictures. That is about the extent of it. I mean yeah you post "blogs" however you can't even read them right on the page you have to click to read more.... WHY? Just log on a blog on blogger.... much easier. In my opinion. Alright I'm done.

So let me get everyone caught up with me. Not a lot to get caught up on, since I am still a stay at home Mom. I am still with Rich and we are still happy. (all good things by the way) My baby is growing way to fast. It has already been 9 months since her birth. Something that is hard to comprehend sometimes. She is trying to walk on her own now. She is a fast learner. This is sometimes good, sometimes bad. Like when she can entertain herself, good. When she trys to repeat me saying Damn, bad.

My Dad had a heart attack on Febuary 9th. He then spent 3 and 1/2 days unconcious. (sp?) Then woke up and spent several days in the CCU then moved to PCU then got moved to Rockford IL to have bi-pass surgery. He spent about a week there the came home last night. He is doing better. As good as he can for having his chest cut open and sewn back together and his leg opened up and veins taken out. We are hoping for a full and very fast recovery.

Now that you are bummed out I am going to be done for tonight because Mackynzie needs me.

bye people